I keep imagining what it would feel like... It's the only thing that would give me that feeling. Unfortunately I think I'm going to give in.

What is "it"?.?.?

Originally Posted by Useless Me

What is "it"?.?.?

Cutting myself. Uh... thought that was obvious. Sorry.

[breakmystride]

It'd be hypocritical of me to tell you not to, but just know that if you start self-harming, it will take over your entire life.

[tealBumblebee]

If you can hold out please please do. I told someone here when I started back and they said it'd get worse, etc. I didn't believe them. They were right. It really is a downward spiral. I wish I could help you feel better darling, sorry you are going through such a tough time. I do think cutting would only make it worse though.

[Sterella]

I've been dealing with cutting for over 7 years now, and I want to tell you that the cravings don't go away. I've tried everything, but they always persist. I'm not trying to dishearten you, but rather give you sound advice. For me, I have decided to accept that I am going to have cravings, and I am going to cut sometimes.

This makes me feel less guilty and disgusted, just accepting it. However, set limits for yourself! Say "I will only cut if I absolutely need to." I set a time limit for myself. When I feel an urge I wait 20 minutes and if I still want it, I cut. But please, don't cut deeply. You don't want to get addicted to deep-cutting. Try instead making multiple very shallow cuts.

This is what works for me. I'm not claiming it is a "cure" or any sort of treatment, but I thought I would offer you my advice, because I know how hard this is.

Love to you, nevergoodenough!

[grey_aj]

Sterella--I really wish that your method would work for me because I'm craving SI right now even though I know I shouldn't do it. But I know that if I do it, I'm probably not going to be able to control it as well as I would like. I haven't done it in a while but my mind won't shut up about it. I just thought your method was intriguing.

- AJ