[whiskeyprincess101]

I am just so frustrated lately. I feel like I'm just bouncing back and forth between contradictions, like I want to talk to my friends about my burning, and I'll try to, but then when I start thinking about it, I get nervous. More so in the way that'll it get taken away from me, and I'll resort to something worse, because they don't know I've relapsed (and that I switched from cutting to burning) and they think I'm holding on strong, and I don't wanna let them down.

And then I just can't shake the feeling of shame. I've always carried it inside of me, everything I do I feel guilty for, even just existing sometimes. Like especially like going back to old tendencies, and like how I use to freak out when I had to go to the dermatologist for acne and for possible cancer moles, and would have fresh cuts of having to explain it, or freaking out about not having enough money to buy the supplies to keep my burns relatively clean.

But yeah and going back to the first point, it just sucks because there's nothing like talking to someone you love, but at the same time it's just so hard.

Anyone can relate or wanna talk to me? I'm feeling pretty lonely, which is just another contradiction of all of this. I feel alone but I can't stop isolating myself even more.

Its kind of like that for me. I want to have somebody i can talk to, but theres nobody i trust

[mazing]

I can definitely relate and was there for a long time. I can't promise to have answers but am always happy to listen if you ever want to PM me and talk.

You aren't alone here We care and are here for you when you need us.