I just dont care anymore. I am so sick of feeling super high one minute and then crashing to a super low the next. I have been fighting the urge to cut for some time now. And know what??? I'm not gonna fight it anymore. SOMETHING has got to give and now. No one gives a **** about me anyways so what does it matter? I bet no one even responds to this post.........typical of what I am finding out about this site.
Whatever. Slice. Slice. Ahhhhhh.

[hahahahah]

Actually, there are a lot of people here who care. I have never posted without getting thoughtful responses. Give it a chance. Are you bipolar?

[kaliope]

I bet a lot more people care than you realize. from what I have experienced, people just don't know how to reach out and let you know that they are concerned or thinking about you. life can seem overwhelming and useless at times, but I have learned, just like you said, nobody will probably respond to this post, nobody ever responds to my posts either, I have learned that I have nobody to count on but myself. I had to become important to myself and learn to live for myself and how to comfort myself. in doing that, I noticed I became important to other people. the more I cared about me, the more others cared about me as well. so be somebody important to yourself and take care.

[Mickey4333]

Originally Posted by kaliope

I bet a lot more people care than you realize. from what I have experienced, people just don't know how to reach out and let you know that they are concerned or thinking about you. life can seem overwhelming and useless at times, but I have learned, just like you said, nobody will probably respond to this post, nobody ever responds to my posts either, I have learned that I have nobody to count on but myself. I had to become important to myself and learn to live for myself and how to comfort myself. in doing that, I noticed I became important to other people. the more I cared about me, the more others cared about me as well. so be somebody important to yourself and take care.

Good insight!!

Yes, I am bipolar. And I have never felt important to anyone, not even myself. And why should I? I am a worthless cheating loser who cant even get a job. I cant help pay the bills around here and we are so far in the hole that we cant even afford bankruptcy. I cant count on myself to do anything right. So why bother?

[Mickey4333]

How about telling friends, family, therapist, nurses, doctors, Etc. Somebody will care, even if it is just a stranger. You sound depressed so I strongly recommend you talk to someone

I am very depressed. I actually found a crisis line chat room and was talking to someone. But you know what? she made me feel worse. she wasnt talking much. just saying "i see" and "ok". gave no real advice and kept asking if i had friends to talk to even though i told her twice that i have no friends. It was a waste of my time and honestly, i feel WORSE now than i did before.