[TasunkaSka]

I would first like to say that Im not sure when this all started. My boyfriend had raped me but even though I was in pain , the pain just added to the pleasure. He is obsessed with blood, and even now my pleasure intensifies when he makes me bleed. He will use knifes, wire, his nails, and even his teeth. I myself find that I enjoy his sense of pain but I never use to be like this. I find myself even inflicting pain during our sex, to the point where I pass out because of my blood loss, even though he wraps me in gauze and ointment I feel like this is wrong and I cant control myself and neither can he. He told me recently that he had thought of killing people, no one in particular just someone. He even said that he had thoughts of slitting my throat and killing me while having his way with me. We are both only 16, he says he loves me and I feel the same, I enjoy the pain even when I know I should be screaming in pain and not pleasure but that aside should I be worried that he would kill me? should I leave? Should I believe him when he says hes not sure if he would kill me? He turned me into this person who now enjoys the pain received when I'm bleeding, I have scars all over my once flawless skin, but it doesnt bother me. I trust him not to end my life but should I be scared of his thoughts? What should I be thinking? What should I do?

[shaanti]

Yes, you should be very scared of his thoughts. This is serious, unhealthy behavior and both of you need to seek help.

personally - i think you should call the cops. I think what he is doing is HORRIBLE.

[nicoleflynn]

This isn't love, it is sadism....... Yes, call the police, call a therapist. He is dangerous; he probably has a history of torturing other people....You need help.......immediately. Do you want to die? You will if you stay with him. You can also call RAINN (rape crisis)