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Jun 06, 2014, 06:16 PM
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Today is the first day of the summer break for me, and this morning, I just decided on a whim that I was going to throw my blade out and be done with it (I'd actually been thinking about it on and off for a while but was too scared to do it). I hesitated for a minute, but then I just did it. And I panicked a bit for a little while after, but now I'm really glad that I got rid of that thing, because it was giving me opportunity where there didn't have to be any.
It would be possible for me to get another blade, of course, or to simply use something else to self harm...but I'm hopeful that this will be the push I need to stop cutting completely, or at least not come back to it for a long, long time. I'm feeling more hopeful about this summer. I just wanted to share this as a reminder to you guys to hang in there, and if you're really struggling with self harm right now, it gets better. It does. The urges might never go away permanently, but they can be managed, and you'll find ways to deal with them. I, myself, am still very much struggling with self harm - but it is now more of a mental battle than a physical one, and I will be three months clean on Monday! Which I'm very excited about.  So just...hang in there, everybody. I am by no means recovered from self harm nor am I a godly role model or anything, but I'm very proud that I've finally reached a place where I'm confident enough to give up my blade...and I really hope that those of you who are really struggling can reach a better place soon too.  HUGS AND GOOD LUCK TO ALL OF YOU!  ~Hailey
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Everyone wants happiness, No one wants pain, But you can't have a rainbow Without a little rain. I am attempting recovery from depression, social anxiety, self harm, suicidal ideation, and some crappy life stuff. The last time I self harmed: 3/17/14 In therapy since: 1/13/14 I threw my blade away on June 6, 2014.  I'm always happy to help. Please send me a message if you ever need to talk about anything. |
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Jun 06, 2014, 08:02 PM
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Wow, that is a huge step! Great job! I hope everything goes very well for you.
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Jun 07, 2014, 04:59 AM
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That is a brave step. A hard step. I know I'll be a long, hard journey and perhaps you'll always battle the urges but no doubt it'll be worth it! You should be proud of yourself.
Let us know how you get on. First step of many! |
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Jun 07, 2014, 03:57 PM
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Impressed by your desire to stop. Brave. wishing you luck in conquering this demon.
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Jun 09, 2014, 07:16 AM
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good for you..... hope it is going well.
I could be a smart___ and honestly say that I throw away my blade daily (cuz I have a box of 1000). |
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