[Nicoleresati]

I don't want to hurt myself, I don't.
I don't purposely do it. It's just sort of something that happens.
I get very angry, and rather than hitting someone else I hit myself...because I'm convenient. I don't always hit myself either..when I'm around someone I will usually lash out at them, and plug my ears and just continue being agitated.
I know doing tests online don't help the situation any. I just want a reason of why I do this or why my thought process is the way it is. I have about everyone of the borderline personality symptoms..I can't just come out and say what if I have this. It may come off as if I want to have something..or could also be offensive. I just want an answer.

[Frankbtl]

Hi Nicole, talked with you about the way you've been feeling on another thread and if you want to talk more about that I'm right here............
But as for the tests/tracking symptoms..........I'd say that it's really good (really good!!!!) that you're recognising how much of a problem your feelings are for you and that you're actually actively looking for answers that might help you.
And I wouldn't say you want to have......this.......or that......do you? It's more that you want to face the situation you might be in, and use it as an explanation and as a way forward, right?
And you're right, online tests or self diagnosis can be unreliable...........so if you think it might help then it's worth getting a professional opinion/diagnosis. But if right now that's not possible, then just know that there are people here who are going to be relating to the way you're feeling/your experiences and are here to support you with that/them in their very own ways. And you might find them all over the place on here.......in the self injury forum.......in the depression forum......in the personality forum...........in the BPD forum.........So whatever's right for you, hey??

Alison