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#1
Jul 21, 2014, 10:00 PM
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I'm loosing it honestly.
I feel as if I am going to harm to the extenct of...well soemthing unhappy!! I have cut my nails no blades (new ones are gone), I feel 'clean" but my feelings and thoughts are beginning to be too much now!! I'm scared really scared...and by saying that I cut my nails and blades are gone, doesnt mean I wont hurt myself... I havn't talked to anyone bout the situation, probally should but I'm certain that well death is the answer this time!!
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I hide my pain and hurt, I don't like others knowing I fear it may hurt them.
So what you see isn't necessarily true don't trust my facial expression. I'm keen and cunning I will trick you. I am suicidal, I cut I have Borderline personality and Depression. I believe I am Auto phobia -I am highly afraid to be alone and I'm very scared of myself, Don't underestimate me. |
 celtic.starlite, Idiot17, Teepee
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#2
Jul 21, 2014, 10:25 PM
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Hey TheTurtleLives
Do you want to chat?? Keep strong! Tee |
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#3
Jul 21, 2014, 11:17 PM
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Write Turtle..... remember the journal? Have you been writing in it? Write. Get it all out. And write here too. You are STRONG.
I believe in you lil sis! Be safe, Celtic |
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#4
Jul 21, 2014, 11:48 PM
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Yeah I write in it I carry it every where and I store it in my bag, I write in it all the time but my thoughts are a little too far this time!
Teepee I don't mind!
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I hide my pain and hurt, I don't like others knowing I fear it may hurt them.
So what you see isn't necessarily true don't trust my facial expression. I'm keen and cunning I will trick you. I am suicidal, I cut I have Borderline personality and Depression. I believe I am Auto phobia -I am highly afraid to be alone and I'm very scared of myself, Don't underestimate me. |
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Jul 22, 2014, 06:41 AM
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Keep fighting Turtle. We are here for you!
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#6
Jul 22, 2014, 10:30 AM
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Sorry I missed you I had to go to work. I second what Celtic said fight, fight, fight and just when you think you can't, focus and FIGHT!!
There are so many things worth fighting for (I also should listen to myself here) fighting for a beautiful day sitting in kings park writing while overlooking the city, fighting for a calm quiet night at home with your folks (this one maybe not now but in the future) to fighting for your chance to find your soul mate, fighting to travel the world, fighting to see beauty in your children and fighting to find the beauty in the world! It is out there is for all of us to fight for and take with both our hands! Reach out turtle and grab your beauty with both hands hold it close and remember it for those rocky times. xx tee |
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#7
Jul 22, 2014, 08:31 PM
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I'm fighting hard real hard, but it's getting to a lot of stress and a lot of anxiety....and I just cut but cutting don't help
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I hide my pain and hurt, I don't like others knowing I fear it may hurt them.
So what you see isn't necessarily true don't trust my facial expression. I'm keen and cunning I will trick you. I am suicidal, I cut I have Borderline personality and Depression. I believe I am Auto phobia -I am highly afraid to be alone and I'm very scared of myself, Don't underestimate me. |
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#8
Jul 22, 2014, 09:55 PM
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Quote:
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#9
Jul 22, 2014, 09:56 PM
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Thanks idiot17
 ...Its so damn frustrating though
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I hide my pain and hurt, I don't like others knowing I fear it may hurt them.
So what you see isn't necessarily true don't trust my facial expression. I'm keen and cunning I will trick you. I am suicidal, I cut I have Borderline personality and Depression. I believe I am Auto phobia -I am highly afraid to be alone and I'm very scared of myself, Don't underestimate me. |
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Jul 24, 2014, 02:31 AM
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Has anything happened to cause those feelings of self harm to go stronger. Have you spoken to anyone about it or a therapist. We are here for you. Please keep talking on here. Me myself i have tremendous mood swings its been a long time since ive self harmed tho im not sure why that is tho as i havent felt any better so maybe possibly its the medication even tho i dont feel like the medication works much still feel like a peice of crap everyday. My medication doesnt help me to leave the house and it doesnt keep me calm in social situations but it has made me put on heaps of wait which makes me feel even more self loathing.
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#11
Jul 24, 2014, 08:36 PM
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Yeah a lot has happened, A LOT.
I decided it was time to open up to someone so I spoke to some friends on here and my neightbour I do not see a Therapist, I probally should but Long story... i see your point of medication, i exaggerate everything (Due to PTSD and anxiety) i make a situation seem worse then what it might be in my head so i avoid it in the whole way its not a good thing living in fear 24/7
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I hide my pain and hurt, I don't like others knowing I fear it may hurt them.
So what you see isn't necessarily true don't trust my facial expression. I'm keen and cunning I will trick you. I am suicidal, I cut I have Borderline personality and Depression. I believe I am Auto phobia -I am highly afraid to be alone and I'm very scared of myself, Don't underestimate me. |
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#12
Jul 25, 2014, 04:56 AM
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I understand. I find it hard myself to ger through each day. Alot of people on here do. What do you like to do that relaxes you? Do you like reading or writing poems or short storys? I hope you feel better soon. Im here if there is anything that you want to talk about x
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#13
Jul 28, 2014, 12:44 PM
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We got you
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#14
Jul 28, 2014, 09:46 PM
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It will all be okay. I promise. Just wait 24 hours. And if you still feel the same way, wait another. And another until you feel the need not to cut.
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