[Browncurtains]

Sorry about the constant posting. This is my place to vent so I don't SH. Sometimes my family can be so difficult! During dinner my mom was berating me for not eating my food, (I've almost totally lost my appetite) then my sister said "she's heavier than me and I eat more then her!" It hurt so badly. After she and my dad were arguing about how what she said was rude and she said "What, it's true, she's just big boned?!". I wanted to cry right there and then. My sister is super skinny and fit, she runs and has friends. Basically she's everything I want to be, but that I'm not. And it's comments like those that hurt me. I know I'm not overweight, but I find myself so critical about the way I look because of what she does. My relationship with her is either 'I do what she wants me to do and she bugs me all day' or 'I don't do what she wants me to do and she's super mad at me', either way it ends up with me angry and annoyed at her. She's my one biggest trigger for SH. It's like this; if she wants me to do something and I don't do it, it's all my fault and I'm super rude; but, if I want her to do something and she doesn't do it it's all my fault and I'm being unfair.

[tealBumblebee]

Your sister sounds manipulative honestly. How old is she? Why does she have such an impact on you? I am pleased though, that your father addressed her being rude.

[Browncurtains]

All growing up my sister was my #1 inspiration. I did everything she wanted me to do. She 16 almost 17 now. I think once I realized I didn't have to do anything for her she started all this. I don't know why she affect me so much.....