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I thought I wanted to go into helping those with autism... now I'm not so sure. I thought I could handle it... but urges were given into.. and thoughts of what If I said or did the wrong thing. Anxiety increased, thoughts of sui return. Or is just getting the thoughts out of my head enough... I don't know, all I know is I want food... I should have called T..... I just couldn't bring myself to do so.

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I was excited until I found out that I want to work with adults, but when I am ready. I feel like it is to early in recovery. I'm afraid of messing up some person's life. Right now I'm crying because giving up this job is not easy. But I also know that I want to work in an office not out in the community. But am I just talking myself out of a job that could be good for me? Or is it worth the pain/guilt/heartache of working with kids?

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That job wasn't for me... among the other things like having to drive in the snowy conditions and I like working with those that I don't have to guess of what they are saying.

(((((puzzclar)))))

You're trying. And as long as you're trying, you're doing what you can and more than most people do.