[SoupDragon]

I have no idea how I am feeling. I asked for an extra session with my T this week, so guess I was aware of something.

Struggled all day yesterday with thoughts of SI, but managed to distract myself. Became too much today.

I know all those other things that I should try, but they never work as quick as SI does and sometimes the need for relief is overwhelming.

It very difficult to overcome the need for our addictions to self harm. I struggle with it as well.

A lot of times I cannot seem to find good enough distractions and it basically takes my spouse to hold me back from acting. I understand that need for relief. I know how much it can physically hurt trying to resist the urges. I am glad that you havent given in to those urges.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((( Soup ))))))))

It's hard when the urges are there. Every second you don't give in is a victory, don't see it as anything less. I hope the urges leave soon.

[guilloche]

Sorry that things are rough, (((Soup Dragon))).

If it's any consolation... I think that any time we can *postpone* SI, like you did, is a great accomplishment. It might not feel like much in the moment, but it's a success in it's own way... because you're putting some *space* between the impulse and the act, and practicing your coping skills in that space.

Hugs...

[Wren_]

(((((Soup)))))

i get you. it is completely overwhelming and it's hard because SI is so easy and quick and effective.

[notz]

((((((((Soup))))))))))

Stay vigilant.

[Espresso]

I understand what you're going through. I have no words of wisdom. All I can offer is a hug.

[SoupDragon]

Bad T session. Thanks for all your hugs.