[jserkid]

I'm addicted to pain being inflicted on me. Past master and slave. I want bruises left on me as well as a sharp knife cutting me while tied up. I want everything to hurt physically as well as the mental battle goes on in my head. I'm completely obedient. I've paid people to cut open my chest. To tie me up please me sexually and leave me tied up for at most two days with porn on and clamps everywhere. I just wanna know how to make this stop.

[kaliope]

i think getting into therapy with a therapist who specializes in such things would be the way to "get over" this issue. you will need to understand the whys so you can find a new, healthy way to meet that need for yourself.

[ThisWayOut]

sounds like you want the outside to mirror the inside... I agree with Kali, finding a T would be a good start (even if you end up keeping the bsdm piece, at least maybe you could find some relief inside)

[Fuzzybear]