It has been ___ days since I SIed -- Part V!

Ariel Simcha · Jun 26, 2017 at 06:38 PM

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Originally Posted by 4428247

Frick, I'm really trying hard today..... so I'm not going to count my day until right before I sleep

There are always bumps in the road. But you have already shown you can do this. Keep your mind on the GOAL.

It has been ___ days since I SIed -- Part V!

Jun 26, 2017 at 06:45 PM

2 weeks!

Ariel Simcha · Jun 26, 2017 at 06:47 PM

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Originally Posted by scaredandconfused

2 weeks!

That is just wonderful.

random_emotion · Jun 26, 2017 at 10:15 PM

like 2 days...

4428247 · Jun 27, 2017 at 07:25 AM

It was 17/20 but then I broke again this morning. My self-esteem plummeted and full on depression hit me. I went from the happiest I've been in a while to this

4428247 · Jun 27, 2017 at 07:25 AM

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Originally Posted by 4428247

It was 17/20 but then I broke again this morning. My self-esteem plummeted and full on depression hit me. I went from the happiest I've been in a while to this

So 0....

PsychNitrous · Jun 27, 2017 at 09:09 AM

It's now been 10 days. This is the longest I've gone without even having any urges in a long time. I think finally getting to the last day of my old job helped, and maybe going on vacation did too, even with the struggles there.

Ariel Simcha · Jun 27, 2017 at 11:10 AM

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Originally Posted by random_emotion

like 2 days...

Great Start. Keep it up!

Ariel Simcha · Jun 27, 2017 at 11:12 AM

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Originally Posted by 4428247

So 0....

I am sorry you had such a rough day. It isn't easy to do this. So time to start again. You know you can do this. 17 days is amazing. So let's do this.

Ariel Simcha · Jun 27, 2017 at 11:14 AM

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Originally Posted by PsychNitrous

It's now been 10 days. This is the longest I've gone without even having any urges in a long time. I think finally getting to the last day of my old job helped, and maybe going on vacation did too, even with the struggles there.

Keep going. You can do this!

Jun 27, 2017 at 11:16 AM

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Originally Posted by 4428247

It was 17/20 but then I broke again this morning. My self-esteem plummeted and full on depression hit me. I went from the happiest I've been in a while to this

Slip-ups happen.

Please be gentle with yourself and also proud that you went 17 days without SI, that's awesome! Just take things one day at a time, ok?

childofchaos831 · Jun 27, 2017 at 02:03 PM

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Originally Posted by 4428247

It was 17/20 but then I broke again this morning. My self-esteem plummeted and full on depression hit me. I went from the happiest I've been in a while to this

We seem to be on the same cycle... we were at the same number of days that whole time, and I broke yesterday.

Nothing major, but definitely counts. Started with picking at one that hadn't healed cuz if was infected (just finished antibiotics Sunday)... and then the obsessing and down the rabbit hole we go...

spiritpanda · Jun 27, 2017 at 02:06 PM

lonely days and lonely nights, when the cat is away the mouse will play. went back to 0 and it will continue this way for the next 10 days 😧

Ariel Simcha · Jun 27, 2017 at 03:36 PM

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Originally Posted by spiritpanda

lonely days and lonely nights, when the cat is away the mouse will play. went back to 0 and it will continue this way for the next 10 days 😧

There is a lot of pain in this post. Even some defeat. I know this is hard. But you can beat this. You can get past this. If you ever want to talk I will try and make myself available.

4428247 · Jun 27, 2017 at 08:13 PM

Is it only me or does sh hurt more after doing it than while doing it because the recovery is what causes me pain... plus having scars makes me was to sh again because it's a trigger

Ariel Simcha · Jun 27, 2017 at 09:52 PM

Yes, your endorphins are higher during cutting then after cutting.

PsychNitrous · Jun 30, 2017 at 08:14 AM

13 days, but the urges are coming back. I thought they wouldn't since things are going better, but I'm a wreck today and I want to SH.

Bill3 · Jun 30, 2017 at 02:04 PM

Glad to hear that things are going better. Hang in there!

Fizzyo · Jun 30, 2017 at 04:00 PM

((((((4428247))))))

-Astral- · Jun 30, 2017 at 04:58 PM

i cant cut anymore because my husband took all the ****ing tools i use to cut with ...am not happy in fact am so ****ing low i cant get even more lower ( even to point of not wanting to be here but everyone needs me to short out there **** )

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Anonymous55397 Guest Posts: n/a	Jun 26, 2017 at 06:45 PM #562 2 weeks!

random_emotion Poohbah Member Since Sep 2015 Location: Minnesota Posts: 1,258 8 96 hugs given	Jun 26, 2017 at 10:15 PM #564 like 2 days... __________________ Formally known as broken_one

4428247 Member Member Since May 2017 Location: Fort Dix Posts: 274 6 59 hugs given	Jun 27, 2017 at 07:25 AM #565 It was 17/20 but then I broke again this morning. My self-esteem plummeted and full on depression hit me. I went from the happiest I've been in a while to this __________________ ---- I am not throwing away my shot Major Depression, Generalized Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, Self-Harm, ADHD-Inattentive, Dermatillomania

PsychNitrous Poohbah Member Since Feb 2016 Location: At Home Posts: 1,398 8 106 hugs given	Jun 27, 2017 at 09:09 AM #567 It's now been 10 days. This is the longest I've gone without even having any urges in a long time. I think finally getting to the last day of my old job helped, and maybe going on vacation did too, even with the struggles there.

spiritpanda Member Member Since Jun 2016 Location: Roselle Posts: 231 7	Jun 27, 2017 at 02:06 PM #573 lonely days and lonely nights, when the cat is away the mouse will play. went back to 0 and it will continue this way for the next 10 days 😧

4428247 Member Member Since May 2017 Location: Fort Dix Posts: 274 6 59 hugs given	Jun 27, 2017 at 08:13 PM #575 Is it only me or does sh hurt more after doing it than while doing it because the recovery is what causes me pain... plus having scars makes me was to sh again because it's a trigger __________________ ---- I am not throwing away my shot Major Depression, Generalized Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, Self-Harm, ADHD-Inattentive, Dermatillomania

Ariel Simcha Account Suspended Member Since Jun 2017 Location: The Outer Limits Posts: 335 6 44 hugs given	Jun 27, 2017 at 09:52 PM #576 Yes, your endorphins are higher during cutting then after cutting.

PsychNitrous Poohbah Member Since Feb 2016 Location: At Home Posts: 1,398 8 106 hugs given	Jun 30, 2017 at 08:14 AM #577 13 days, but the urges are coming back. I thought they wouldn't since things are going better, but I'm a wreck today and I want to SH.

Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,924 15 24.1k hugs given	Jun 30, 2017 at 02:04 PM #578 Glad to hear that things are going better. Hang in there!

Fizzyo Grand Magnate Member Since Jan 2015 Location: UK Posts: 3,282 9 3,980 hugs given	Jun 30, 2017 at 04:00 PM #579 ((((((4428247)))))) __________________ We're people first, anything else is secondary.

-Astral- Poohbah Member Since Jan 2012 Location: Scotland Posts: 1,259 12 20 hugs given	Jun 30, 2017 at 04:58 PM #580 i cant cut anymore because my husband took all the **ing tools i use to cut with ...am not happy in fact am so ing low i cant get even more lower ( even to point of not wanting to be here but everyone needs me to short out there ** ) __________________