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#161
I'm struggling. I have good motivation not to give in (the specifics of which I rather keep to myself) but it remains difficult.
Edit: I'm on a long streak, though. Real SI I haven't done since November 10th and headbanging/hitting myself.. early January, I think. |
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#163
Hang on in there Breadfish, you can do it!
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Go Breadfish!
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#165
8, almost 9, days.
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#166
Well done childofchaos831! ☺
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#167
High Fives to Everyone...
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#168
Good work Childofchaos
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#169
Just over a week, but I've been fighting so hard. I've felt terrible all week, and it's hard not to give in to the urges. I'm feeling really triggered tonight too.
Possible trigger:
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#170
Coming up on two years. Too much crap going on right now. I'm at my boiling point. I'm holding a knife. Or I might just go to bed.
I have to decide what I really want out of all of this. Seesaw __________________ What if I fall? Oh, my dear, but what if you fly? Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia. Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less... |
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#174
Great work emptynightmare!
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#175
Been very reluctant to post here lately.
Back at 0. Seems to be comfort zone __________________ Tired of feeling lost, tired of letting go. Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down. Tired of wasting breath, tired of nothing left. Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down. Failure. Failure - Breaking Benjamin |
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#176
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11 days now...
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#178
Well done childofchaos831! ☺
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#179
Thanks! It's been hard, but I'm trying to not have injuries when I'm in Vegas. I don't want to have to be careful what I wear and such. We are probably gonna swim at the hotel, and we're taking a day trip to the Grand Canyon. I also have 4 days sober, and I'm worried about being in Vegas with the drinking/drugs.
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#180
Have a safe and sober trip!
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