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Trichotillomania very bad tonight. Scary. I couldn't stop at all. I tried, but I couldn't. My whole body hurts.
To be honest the only thing keeping me from cutting is that I'm holding out until tomorrow after work so I have the weekend to recover. Guilty because I was in the shower for over an hour destroying my body and my roommate likes to go to bed early and now she can't because she just got in and the water is probably cold. Last edited by Anonymous50909; Jun 09, 2017 at 02:17 AM.. |
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#462
Is it possible to pass out from this? Im trying to go put my gloves on but I feel lightheaded.
edit: sorry, I should write zero days here otherwise I am just rambling on the wrong thread... Last edited by Anonymous50909; Jun 09, 2017 at 03:45 AM.. |
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#463
Day 96...
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#464
2 days. Things seem to be looking up a bit, so I might be ok for a while. But there are little things that keep pushing through and start to bring me down.
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#465
It's been a while, possibly a week? Does anyone else find that when things are really bad they actually self harm less? I seem to get into states where I feel so awful that it would be pointless self harming because it's not even going to touch it. So I don't have the energy for it. Does that make sense?
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#466
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__________________ ---- Major Depression, Generalized Anxiety, Borderline Personality Disorder, Self-Harm, ADHD-Inattentive, Dermatillomania
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#467
Congratulations to all those above... Keep it up!
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97 Days...
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#469
Nobody sees. Nobody cares. Why should I?
If I wake up early tomorrow, before my boyfriend, I'm cutting. I just don't care to try anymore. Nobody cares if I do or not anyway. |
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#470
It sounds like your boyfriend cares.
People here care. Including me. |
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I care about you and whether or not you cut. I understand the feeling that no one cares (and in the moment it's hard to not think that), but remember that you have people on here that are emotionally invested in you
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2 days/10 days
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I didn't do anything today.
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#478
Hi... I am more than willing to talk with you if that helps. Just PM me and let's talk. I will be on most of the day but I am just checking in at the moment until church starts...
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#479
Well done 4428247. Each hour of each day is a victory. Best wishes as you continue your path.
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#480
(((((PsychNitrous))))) it is a hard battle. Your boyfriend probably knows more than he lets on. My hubbie notices "the evidence" but usually says nothing as he doesn't want to upset me.
It sounds like he cares (like my hubbie does) but I know that doesn't always change how you feel. Well done for not doing anything all day. Best wishes and hugs whatever you do next. __________________ We're people first, anything else is secondary. |
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