It has been ___ days since I SIed -- Part V!

Feb 03, 2017 at 03:30 AM

Previous thread reached 100 pages.

For me, burning is almost 3 months and banging or punching my head, a couple of weeks.

Feb 03, 2017 at 01:45 PM

Not sure, but I've had my fair share of urges over the last week and a half. It got much worse when my beloved Chloe died on the 25th. There are some other stressors too, but I won't go into detail here, because I would be writing all afternoon. Besides, what really matters is that I've resisted the urge so far.

Bill3 · Feb 03, 2017 at 02:11 PM

Great job hanging there ennui!

Fizzyo · Feb 05, 2017 at 03:06 PM

(((((Ennui))))) keep up the good work, you're doing brilliantly!

childofchaos831 · Feb 05, 2017 at 03:26 PM

Last few days I've been picking... to the point where I feel it crosses the thin line into si.

So still 0...

Fizzyo · Feb 05, 2017 at 04:27 PM

((((((Childofchaos))))))

12AM · Feb 06, 2017 at 12:29 PM

I promise tomorrow will be 1.

Fizzyo · Feb 06, 2017 at 05:14 PM

((((((12AM))))))

Don't forget every hour is a battle won and a mountain climbed all by itself!

I hope you can be kind to yourself and acknowledge each achievement, even 20 mins can be a triumph, even though it may not feel like it.

I was advised to praise myself every 20 mins that I was able to resist. It felt weird to start with, but after a time I was surprised how it seemed to slightly shift something in me in a good way.

PointOfNoReturn · Feb 06, 2017 at 05:51 PM

65 days i think, just posting so i have something on this thread to refer to when im keeping count

PsychNitrous · Feb 06, 2017 at 05:59 PM

Tomorrow should make 2 weeks. I feel weird counting it as that long, though, because I don't feel like I've been very kind to myself for longer than that.

Bill3 · Feb 06, 2017 at 07:50 PM

Well done PsychNitrous!

Are you saying that you have not been kind to yourself during these two weeks?

12AM · Feb 07, 2017 at 09:19 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Fizzyo

((((((12AM))))))

Don't forget every hour is a battle won and a mountain climbed all by itself!

I hope you can be kind to yourself and acknowledge each achievement, even 20 mins can be a triumph, even though it may not feel like it.

I was advised to praise myself every 20 mins that I was able to resist. It felt weird to start with, but after a time I was surprised how it seemed to slightly shift something in me in a good way.

Thank you so much Fizzyo. Everyone said I am too hard to myself and I have to be kind to myself but I still find it hard to do. I find that praising myself is one of the hardest things to do.

(((Fizzyo)))

PsychNitrous · Feb 07, 2017 at 11:46 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Bill3

Well done PsychNitrous!

Are you saying that you have not been kind to yourself during these two weeks?

Not very kind, no. I haven't intentionally hurt myself, but I've done things that I know I won't enjoy, and not entirely because they need to be done. Plus I was pretty hard on myself last week for not being able to do some things I normally do, like work out, because I was injured.

Bill3 · Feb 07, 2017 at 05:14 PM

I'm sorry that you were injured.

To what extent (if any) does being unkind to yourself, choosing things that you don't enjoy, helps you stay away from intentional physical self-injury?

PsychNitrous · Feb 07, 2017 at 06:11 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Bill3

I'm sorry that you were injured.

To what extent (if any) does being unkind to yourself, choosing things that you don't enjoy, helps you stay away from intentional physical self-injury?

Thanks, I'm happily healing very quickly. I guess really the only thing that these things have done to keep me from intentional SI is just keeping me too tired to do anything. I'm sure I've mentioned here before that I typically SI in the morning, but lately I've been taking a medication that makes me so tired I can barely get ready for work when I wake up, much less have time to SI.

may24 · Feb 08, 2017 at 05:54 PM

4 days... though it feels like an eternity

Bill3 · Feb 08, 2017 at 11:24 PM

Great job snowflake20! Congratulations!

What helped you get this far?

may24 · Feb 10, 2017 at 09:15 AM

Thank you! @Bill3

Well, I've been over eating lately, which may not be the best option to cope because I use it for similar purposes as SI... but I'm trying not to beat myself up for it and keep taking care of myself.
I've realized that the first 3-5 days SI clean are always the hardest for me; but once I get through that it gets a little easier. I hope I can make this last.
Take care everyone ❤️

Yukari · Feb 10, 2017 at 12:57 PM

0. I'm not even trying to stop, idk why I bother counting. :l

b1ghr0ll3r · Feb 11, 2017 at 05:14 AM

94 days since I sliced my arm open , 93 days since I had surgery on it. Have only had the urge to do it once since but I never followed through.

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Anonymous40413 Guest Posts: n/a	Feb 03, 2017 at 03:30 AM #1 Previous thread reached 100 pages. For me, burning is almost 3 months and banging or punching my head, a couple of weeks.

Anonymous37914 Guest Posts: n/a	Feb 03, 2017 at 01:45 PM #2 Not sure, but I've had my fair share of urges over the last week and a half. It got much worse when my beloved Chloe died on the 25th. There are some other stressors too, but I won't go into detail here, because I would be writing all afternoon. Besides, what really matters is that I've resisted the urge so far.

Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,948 15 24.1k hugs given	Feb 03, 2017 at 02:11 PM #3 Great job hanging there ennui!

Fizzyo Grand Magnate Member Since Jan 2015 Location: UK Posts: 3,282 9 3,980 hugs given	Feb 05, 2017 at 03:06 PM #4 (((((Ennui))))) keep up the good work, you're doing brilliantly! __________________ We're people first, anything else is secondary.

childofchaos831 Elder Member Since Nov 2016 Location: Texas Posts: 5,037 8 15 hugs given	Feb 05, 2017 at 03:26 PM #5 Last few days I've been picking... to the point where I feel it crosses the thin line into si. So still 0... __________________ Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain

Fizzyo Grand Magnate Member Since Jan 2015 Location: UK Posts: 3,282 9 3,980 hugs given	Feb 05, 2017 at 04:27 PM #6 ((((((Childofchaos)))))) __________________ We're people first, anything else is secondary.

12AM Seeker of Life Member Since Oct 2015 Location: Silver Town of Argyra Posts: 4,786 9 5,508 hugs given	Feb 06, 2017 at 12:29 PM #7 I promise tomorrow will be 1. __________________ One day I’ll leave my 6 flowers and millions of butterflies 🌹🦋

PointOfNoReturn Member Member Since Feb 2016 Location: Secret Posts: 150 8 12 hugs given	Feb 06, 2017 at 05:51 PM #9 65 days i think, just posting so i have something on this thread to refer to when im keeping count __________________ Isolated, I succumb to the weight of the world Separated, I fall from the sky

PsychNitrous Poohbah Member Since Feb 2016 Location: At Home Posts: 1,398 8 106 hugs given	Feb 06, 2017 at 05:59 PM #10 Tomorrow should make 2 weeks. I feel weird counting it as that long, though, because I don't feel like I've been very kind to myself for longer than that.

Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,948 15 24.1k hugs given	Feb 06, 2017 at 07:50 PM #11 Well done PsychNitrous! Are you saying that you have not been kind to yourself during these two weeks?

Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,948 15 24.1k hugs given	Feb 07, 2017 at 05:14 PM #14 I'm sorry that you were injured. To what extent (if any) does being unkind to yourself, choosing things that you don't enjoy, helps you stay away from intentional physical self-injury?

may24 Member Member Since Aug 2016 Location: Europe Posts: 402 8 486 hugs given	Feb 08, 2017 at 05:54 PM #16 4 days... though it feels like an eternity

Bill3 Legendary Member Since Mar 2009 Location: USA Posts: 10,948 15 24.1k hugs given	Feb 08, 2017 at 11:24 PM #17 Great job snowflake20! Congratulations! What helped you get this far?

Yukari Junior Member Member Since Feb 2017 Location: gap Posts: 17 7 5 hugs given	Feb 10, 2017 at 12:57 PM #19 0. I'm not even trying to stop, idk why I bother counting. :l __________________