[passionfruit3]

I woke up not to long ago decided to write this cause I'm a bit stressed.
I don't know what will happen with me today.i burned my hand I think two days on purpose and gave myself third degree burns.my mother found out and she's talking about letting the hospital decide what to do with me.
But it gets worse the day before that I ordered some pills to harm myself with there supposed to be here Friday though before it said Tuesday. I regreted it almost as soon as I did it but by the time I thought to cancel it it was to late.so I texted my casemanager what should I do but since this was Saturday she hasn't received the message yet my anxiety is through the roof.i don't want to go inpatient.i don't want to live elsewhere yet I felt I did the right thing like the lady told me on another forum break the cycle.but with this addiction to hurting myself it's just hard to go backwards.

[Skeezyks]