I put plans in place so my bad moods don't get the worst of me and I don't do too badly this semester (college). it makes me feel guilty. and I want to cut. I don't deserve to be better.

also - sorry, don't think that "responsible" (in the title) is the right word, but I can't figure out how to edit that??

[passionfruit3]

Doing a better job than some people i can't even think of college being mentally ill.i dropped out twice due to lack of motivation and suicide attempts. And im not going back cause if you drop out three times you will be sent out to a further school.i cant afford to go back till my mental health is straightened out.