eleven diazepam

I am not sure if this is the "correct" section for this. I am not allowed to make mistakes, you see. I get punished "all my life" ... or some rubbish to that effect But I have taken 11 diazepam. I am not intending to damage myself ... I don't think ... but I sure as h*ll aint supposed to take that many. Do I care? No, and neither have any of the quacks I have seen

Take care everyone,
Love,
Fuzzy

sorry ... shouldnt have posted that ... I am not usually so irresponsible.... they were only 2mg pills ... a baby dose. I feel pretty sick though. I have built up quite a tolerance to the damn things though. The GP who I FIRST TOLD ABOUT MY PANIC ATTACKS, DEPRESSION AND ABUSE TREATED ME WORSE THAN A TURD HE HAD TRODDEN ON. SORRY ABOUT THE CAPS. I MUST GO TO BED.

what a joke. still cant sleep

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My dear fuzzy, I see that you are really hurting and my heart aches for you. I see that you need to feel trusted and trust the people who are trying to treat you. I see that diazapam is not a good med for you any longer because anyone who can take that much and still walk and talk has a tolerance that is unhealthy. I don't know your sit with doc and therapist but you really have been hurting and I wonder if you should start there? You are taking chances my dear. Talk to a doc. Maybe you need a total med eval. I am sorry for your pain.

((((((((((((((((Fuzzy))))))))))))))))))

<font color=orange>"Success is the ability to go from failure to failure without losing your enthusiasm. - Winston Churchill "</font color=orange>

Fuzzy, diazepam can do serious damage and I would truly be upset if something happened to you - nothing I have ever done in my life has been good enough for anyone and yes, I have been punished alot for my failures.

Please, please don't take meds like that again. I am worried about you - not trying to tell you what to do, but the concern for you is very genuine and very sincere.


<font color=purple>The key to realizing a dream is to focus not on success but significance - and then even the small steps and little victories along your path will take on greater meaning.
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(((((Fuzzy))))))
I am so sorry for you pain. I hope that you are alright. I am worried about you.

Jessica

<font color=blue> You are in this snowglobe. It is encovered in glass and secure. But one day someone comes and shakes the globe and the pieces go flying everywhere. Now they will eventually settle but they won't be the way they were before and they can never be that way again. </font color=blue>

Thanks everyone! I know I do take too much diazepam sometimes, and I guess it is a form of self injury/self sabotague, but my anxiety is so bad often that sometimes it is the only thing that seems to help. But I am very careful not to increase the dose I take over a month .... I only get it prescribed by a doctor (although they were very reluctant to prescribe it, for sure. To be honest, their lack of cooperation, lack of caring, judgemental attitude, lack of providing any other form of help and rudeness in refusing to prescribe a baby dose for me to take very occasionally for very severe anxiety has contributed to my sort of stuff it attitude towards it (and them) ... bad, I know) I am trying to cut down, and I will keep you posted. Thanks for your concern everyone, you are very kind.

For those who don't know, I live in the UK, and the attitude of a lot of mental health "helpers" over here leaves something to be desired ...

Well that is my rant for today! I am not sleeping anyway at the moment, so I won't take any meds tonight and see what happens I do take Paxil in the mornings which I was prescribed by a shrink who I was eventually referred to.

Love,
Fuzzy

Sorry it took me so long to get here, I became frightened when I saw your post. I hope this message finds you well.
Carrie

<font color=blue>If you have two dollars, spend one on bread and the other on flowers. The bread will feed your body and the flowers will feed your soul."--Arabic Saying

(((((((((((((Fuzzy))))))))))))) Glad to see that you're 'ok'.Reason you couldn't sleep is that sleeplessness/insomnia is a 'side effect' of taking too much diazepam. Did you feel sick to your tummy?

I can kind of understand why you took so many.

Perhaps the doctor doesn't want you to hurt yourself, and that's why he/she gave you such low dosage. I used to be on diazepam and lorazepam myself, but my shrink refuses to prescribe anything like that for me because he knows that I might hurt myself. It is so easy to OD, esp. when you're feeling bad. Please try something else instead. Such as posting here. I care about you.

Thanks Zen and SS. I am having a bad night, with some bad thoughts, but I'm not going to take any of the d*** things. Wish me luck

Take care,
Fuzzy

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<font color=blue>If you have two dollars, spend one on bread and the other on flowers. The bread will feed your body and the flowers will feed your soul."--Arabic Saying

Fuzzy - I haven't been around much so I just read this. I hope you are feeling better (((((((((((((((Fuzzy))))))))))))))))


Take time just for you.

Karen