Overwhelming

I cut today. It wasn't deep but I am having really overwhelming thoughts of harming myself really badly I just wanted to express that. Is it common to cut and self harm in those places? I was googling and it seems like it's a sign of something bad. Gender identity was always fluid for me. I don't know. I want to do it more because it just seems right, I've always wanted to do harm to myself in these areas and I don't think my boobs should be there, and why not? But it's also a little scary because I know I want to do a lot of damage.

Well... I can't say I know a lot about this. But I've had a life-long struggle with gender identity disorder & I've had some experience with it myself.

There have been a couple of other posts on this subject, here on PC, in the past. I don't know if reading through them will be of any help. However here are links to them along with a link to an article by DocJohn on cutting & self-injury:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/self...a-breasts.html

https://forums.psychcentral.com/self...r-warning.html

https://psychcentral.com/blog/cutting-and-self-injury/

My best wishes to you...

When I first started cutting/burning I quickly switched to areas covered by underwear or swimwear, because I was ill and at the doctor's a lot. Mostly breasts and buttocks. This was just a matter of practicality.

Nowadays the urge to hurt my female areas is mostly because they make me feel vulnerable, they are sensitive and that reminds me of trauma, and I just don't like having them - not because I don't want to be/don't feel like a woman, more that I am asexual and don't really see the use for sexual organs, including breasts.