[June Gloom]

Okay so this probably sounds stupid but I've found lately that I can go a couple weeks without harming myself, but then in one big burst I end up doing it a week in a row or a few days in a row, and the littlest things can set it off. I've gotten better at hiding it with makeup and jewelry but my family still notices, especially my mom. I feel so guilty because I know what I do hurts her, but I can't seem to stop myself, and I'm running out of excuses qnd ways to hide it. I have these episodes where I get really shaky and if I don't harm myself it only gets worse. I know I'm not insane but I feel like there's a voice in my head that tells me repeatedly to do things that aren't in my best interest. I confided in a friend once, and she recommended I seek therapy but honestly the thought of counseling terrifies me which is so stupid!!! I've ridden every sort of roller coaster and held snakes and done all sorts of things but therapy is just terrifying. I'm sorry if I'm rambling. Thank you for reading this.

[Skeezyks]

I understand this. I really do... (I'll spare you the details!) And I know you wrote counseling terrifies you. But, at least from my perspective, I think it's probably going to be necessary. If you're like me, this is not going to go away by itself. So the sooner you "bite the bullet", so to speak, & get working on this with a skilled therapist the better. It's only likely to get more complicated, & more difficult, the longer you put it off. So I hope that in some way you can find the strength to reach out, in real life, for the help you need.

I agree with Skeezyks, you deserve to be helped and I wish you all the best

[eye2797]

Do not be scared of therapy. All you can do is try it, just like the first time on a roller coaster.