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Old 06-07-2021, 05:23 PM   #121
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I'm trying, it's just oh so hard. I haven't had urges like this in some time. I am out of practice!
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Old 06-07-2021, 07:42 PM   #122
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Old 06-08-2021, 02:15 PM   #123
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I thought the urges might be because I was coming up on a big day, 500 days no self harm, but I am mistaken. I am still having urges even though I hit the 500 mark. I don't know. Maybe my depression is acting up. Maybe its something else. I can't tell. I usually never can. I'm just in a really hurting space and so I want to hurt myself to feel better. HUGS Kit
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I'm trying to "ride the wave" of the urges. It's so hard. I keep visualizing what it would be like to self harm. I can feel the bite of the blade. I can see red. I know it would feel amazing to give into it. And then it would feel like crap. I don't want to start all the way over after making it to 500 days. I don't want to have to go to my family and friends and tell them I relapsed. I don't want to possibly end up back at the hospital. I have to get strong. I have to stay strong. I have to fight this!
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