Can’t stand it. Tactiles get worse when people are working against me. Like them denying my rape or denying that my uncles brother tried to drown me when I was a kid. Above tactiles that was ****** thing to do that to your niece, just so you wouldn’t ruin your new relationship with your in-laws you threw the child under the bus to save the 17 year old who did it. They told me never to tell. They came over a few days ago and it’s been Hell since then. I can’t stand the sight of them. Mom took their side back then. Never got me therapy just told my teacher that my story was “crazy”. I hate them. I hate myself for breathing the same air.

[Yaowen]

Dear schizophrenic123,

I am so sorry all of these things happened to you. How awful and heartbreaking!

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen

[SlumberKitty]

Does self harming stop the tactile hallucinations for a while? Is it a distraction or do you feel better? Can you think of any positive ways you can get the same result without hurting yourself? (It's okay if you can't.) For a long time self harming was the only way to get the hallucinations to go away for me. Though I don't get tactiles often. But now I can text with friends and they can talk me through it, help calm me down. I also sometimes take anti-anxiety meds which chill me out. I just took a Xanax a bit ago and it helped because I've been getting lots of thoughts to self harm. Darn right really annoying too. I'm sorry for what you have been through and what you are still going through. Are the holidays particularly hard for you? HUGS If wanted, Kit