im so stupid

i did it. i cut again. i told myself i would regret it....and i do. i dont know why i have to be so stupid and not listen to myself. i was doing good for awhile but i just had to go and ruin it all. im not even worth trying anymore.

Youre not stupid. You made a mistake. now we move on to day one. right? im here for you. pm me if you need to talk. we all have this feeling of a release. You need to realize we make mistakes. Does not make you bad or indifferent, just human

Colleen

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Of course, you're worth it! God doesn't make junk, Honey ... but He does give us leeway to make stupid mistakes. So, you're human ... so you screwed up ... so you didn't hear that little built-in voice that tries to tell us not to do stupid things. That doesn't make YOU stupid ... and it doesn't even make cutting stupid. You know that, right?

No, it's not good to cut ... but it's understandable. The pain, the hurt in your heart was so big that you could only think of one way to stop it. I'm sorry it had to be SI ... I'm sorry you had so much pain. Now move on!

I'm trying very hard to be a GoodMama to my newest adopted daughter and I've learned a lot of things from her and from the wonderful people on the forum. One thing I've learned is the value of coming here for help <u>before</u> the urge to cut gets so strong. I honestly believe that talking about your troubles with someone else ... even the faceless friends you have here ... makes those troubles LESS because you're sharing your burden. I hope and pray you'll come here ... and share your troubles ... before you let SI win again.

I'm sending you lots and lots of gentle hugs, Honey. Now pick yourself up ... brush yourself off ... and start all over again! (OK, I borrowed that from an old song, but the sentiment's the same!)

You are NOT junk ... you are NOT worthless ... you are a valuable person ... and don't deserve to hurt like you do!

GoodMama

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i did it. i cut again. i told myself i would regret it....and i do. i dont know why i have to be so stupid and not listen to myself. i was doing good for awhile but i just had to go and ruin it all. im not even worth trying anymore.

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i maybe off... but, maybe look at it not as a mistake but as an opportunity to learn something new... i know that after i cut... if i only look at the failure... or the negative... i miss the big picture... if i take a deep breath ... forgive myself... then i can see the dynamics of what was going on better... i can't see it when i am in the middle of it all... i am not saying that cutting is ok... but look at how many more days you didn't cut... and learn from what happened...lyn