i am a self injurer...may trigger

Hi everyone, im new to this forum. Ive been trying to work up the courage now for a couple days to come here and talk a little bit about my problems..i guess tonites the night.

I have a pretty bad problem with self injury. I last cut on Thursday 8/19 and i am still having guilty feelings about doing it.

Alcohol is almost always a factor in my cutting, and im the first to admit that. Im not proud of what i do, but it just seems like its a vicious cycle.

Im hoping that this is a safe place to come and talk.

Thank you for listening.

Jag

Welcome to the boards, Jag, and specifically this area.

You'll discover a few of us who frequent here more than others. I SI also - haven't in a while. However, all of us here understand the urge to self-harm and we keep each other above water.

Feel free to talk to us about anything. We're here to help.


Courage is fear that has said its prayers.
Dorothy Bernard

Thanks for the welcome. Im looking forward to getting to know everyone here.

Jag

Welcome to our little haven. I find this place to be of great comfort. Everyone here is in different stages of healing so we are able to pull on a large variety of knowlege strength and support. I have always felt safe here and on the occassion that an insensitive person wanders in here we all rise in defense of each other. After all the only people who truly understand what we are going through is us.

It is interesting how you say you know that alcohol is a factor in your self injury. That is an awesome insight. There are a few people here who have the same alcohol/self injury connection. For me, alcohol is another form of self injury as is smoking. So when I am drinking and smoking I rarely injure myself in other ways...except in sexual relationships. Hmmm, maybe I was wrong when I said there was not alcohol/self injury connection for me.
Carrie

<font color=blue>If you have two dollars, spend one on bread and the other on flowers. The bread will feed your body and the flowers will feed your soul."--Arabic Saying

Jagster,
Congratulatons on finding the courage to come here to post. I myself have not nearly found the same amount to really post in this particular forum. I tend to frequent here, but not really share my past with SI.
You are welcome and this is a safe place.

jessica

"Take these chances. Place them in a box until a quieter time..." ~DMB

Welcome Jagster. I am pretty new here as well. Been spending sometime in another forum. I am glad you and I found a place to discuss these issues. It is tough finding people who will not judge you for this behavior.

Sometimes alcohol and SI are related for me as well. You are not alone. I can see someone coming in here and saying just don't drink. But they may not understand that drinking is self harming as well. I use alcohol to change my feelings.

I hope to be able to share more of "my stuff' when I feel more comfortable with this forum.

<font color=white>laughter really is the best medicine</font color=white>

Thank you all for your kind replies and for welcoming me here. Im a pretty talkative person once i get to know people, so im sure you'll be hearing alot more from me. Every day i feel a little more comfortable here in this forum. For now, im spending most of my time on the general discussion board, but pretty soon, i'll be bopping all over the place and you probably wont be able to shut me up

Thanks again for taking the time to listen and reply to me.

Jag