update :D

lol i thought id update on my position. cuz well, i have finally ogt the courage to post here again. i was underthe impression that every time i posted saying i was stopping, i ended up failing, so i just tried to forget it. and i guess it worked. i have done nothing appart from a couple of scratches lately. so it has definately got better. i shall be working on it more and more, and soom i shal NOT FALL OVER!
this is a test. if i can not do it after saying i wont here, i will know i have got somewhere. go me. lol hahaha
good luck to all u trying to battle with it too, im open to support u guys, justpm me when u feel rough, or perhaps just talk in chat eh?
gluck guys
dot

i am happy for you

Good luck

thats great dot well done

love you

Well done Selfy

That's great dot.

BB

I'm happy for you selfy!

i read all your reasons not to self injure...great job!

good 4 you. i wish i could stop, but i cant find anything to help besides cutting.

Selfy - that's me too - everytime i said i hadn't cut or how many days it had been or i was doing well BAM - i'd blow it.
Now i can't even seem to pick myself up... so YOU GO! You be the one who doesn't fall over so we can all look to you!!! We take turns, eh? being the one who doesn't fall over...
Yay Selfy! Go Dot!
=) kiya

There You Go !!! .

u peeps r cool
bah. its not making me wanna cut, actually i been doin good. but still feel like crap whenever i change my clothes or get n the shower. but eh dont we all? plus my doc put me on the pill and its making me gain weight. that is a confidence kicker i guess.
i can still see the old ones when they were new, its tempting. i keep saying im already broke just a few more wont hurt.

i have my prom in 3 months.
my mom wants to go shopping for it
i am SCREWED
big time.
oh well it was fault in the first place.
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blah tc dudes

those are the false messages trying to pull you back down...replace them with the truth when you hear them... the truth is you matter and it does... stay safe...take gentle care of your self... it's hard but you can do this...lyn

ty.

o i had decided i was gonna get a scarification done when i was better. to like, associate my scars with something nicer. hmm.
not so sure now, cuz idk wether its an excuse to hurt myself again. ill wait and see. plus ive been reading up. its GOT to be something that i love. hm.
i dunno wether i wanna play around with something so permanent.
oh well.

dot

just thinking. do i need to turn my new widget back?
cuz i have been trying to do a scarification on myself. is that SI?
i dont want the pain just the picature.but idk. is tht true?....
i have no idea.

bah

((((((((((Selfy)))))))))))))

I'd say it's your decision. I'd also wait and get it professionally done if you can... less chance of severe injury.

Be safe.

why am i bothering. who am i kidding.
theres no f****** point of stopping. im already f***** up body wise. whats a few more scars gonna hurt.

im a supid whorish lowlife b****.
thats all. i wish i could just drop down dead.
im sorry for being a selfish cow.
but hey i wouldnt be if i were dead eh?

Dot, the problem with your theory is you're not any of those things. It hurts me to see you say those things about yourself, and I wish you could see you how I see you.

i wish you could see how i saw YOU!

lol we are a pair eh...

heheheh

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pah. still my bad tho.

owell

NO. You are NOT any of those things. NOT NOT NOT.

(((((((selfy))))))))))) I'm sorry you're feeling this way.

((((((((((((((((((((Selfy))))))))))))))))))))) You are not any of those things. You are a kind wonderful person.

BB

selfy the others are right...you are non of those things... if it helps most of my scars from when i was young have faded enough that as long as i don't tan...i am the only one who can really see them...and some were really deep and should have been stiched... there are creams that help even fade old scars...but what i found the best is to keep sunscreen on them and to stay out of the sun a much as possible...lyn

selfy you are such an amazing person and i wish that you could see that about yourself. You help so mandy people and i wish i could help you, i wish i could have you see yourself for how the rest of the world sees you. You are beautiful selfy, from the inside out and you truly matter. Do not give up because you are strong and i know you can do this. Love ya! Court

*is pissed*

guess what tasty present my ex gave me....

hm he gave me a sharpener blade. tanks mate. just trigger me and give me something to do it with while yo at it. i need to change my widget now.

thanks again to my ex. thank YOU!

dot

Selfy I love you.

((((((((((Selfy))))))))))))))