[Zenobia]

Could hardly sleep at all last night. Had vivid dreams that were rather interesting. The pipes in the bathroom were leaking but I told my daughter to finish getting ready. When she was done the bathroom was flooding, then the floor dropped out into the basement smashing the water heater but not the furnace. I looked at the situation, trying to figure out what to do next and figured that I would have to replace the floor joists. But first things first I probably should turn off the water. When I went down to turn it off I found the plumber put in a second shut off valve the the tool didn't work on so I found the primary shut off valve and turned off the water. Then I woke up.

I understand that leak is the crud going and letting my daughter get done is me putting off taking care of myself. The floor dropping out is the inevitable result of not taking care of myself. But why was the water heater crushed and not the furnace and what is all the stuff about the extra shut off valve? Any ideas? Perhaps my T is the plumber who is teaching me another way and perhaps the other valve is the new coping skills. And my going back to the original shut off is my use of SI. I was so close this morning in the shower. I so wanted to...but then I thought about the garden burger in the freezer and how much better my body would feel if I just got out of the shower, put on some comfy clothes and ate some good food. So I didn't hurt myself and I am sitting here thinking that is a good thing. I am still tired as heck though.

My husband has agreed to go to a session with me. Catherine talked to me again on the phone and let me know that she will be very careful about how we proceed and that she will make sure that I am safe. I need help with this, I trust her to help me. She also said she wants to make sure that my hubby is safe too. I am glad of that. She will be better able to assess the situation if she doesn't just go on my word since I admit my word can be tinted by BPD thinking.

Well, I got to go get my son from school. He has early dismissal today. I am going to be spoiling myself today as much as possible. Bon bons must be bought.
Thanks everyone for your support. I read what you wrote in my other thread. I don't have time to go back and respond right now but I love you all. Thanks so much.
Carrie

[Rapunzel]

Carrie, thanks for sharing this. You are an inspiration to me.
Wendy