When cutting does not help...

i'v gotten to the point where even cutting does not even help me anymore. what do i do now? i feel so apathetic i just dont know what to do.

maybe i should just keep going until i feel something... since no one has offered any advice.

i see my therapist tomorrow but she's no help at all. actually. i always feel worse when i'm there.

Im here. its hard for all of us to not cut. for me there are also times where I cannot keep from going further. I try to exercise till i Pass out. I have to force myself to...its the only way..

I hope this helps....please hang in there.
Colleen

I am really sorry that you are feeling so bad right now. Maybe you can work with your t on finding some new coping mechanisms. Maybe working on a positive aspect would be more beneficial and you may feel better when you leave.

BB

(((((((stacy3601))))))))))))

I think if you wind up feeling worse after a session with T, maybe you could switch to find a better match?

I know that any sort of addiction reaches its peak, and then it takes far more damage for you to "feel it" again... but that's not really a good thing to be doing to yourself. Have you seen the list of things to do instead of SIng post? I find it helpful.

sometimes for me feeling worse after my t appointment means that i am "feeling" which is really hard for me... so it means we had a good session... tonight i "feel" like i got hit by a truck... and really want to si... but i also know he touched on some really difficult issues... lyn

Stacy, sometimes this happens.

I've been cutting for nearly 18 years and I can say that there have been times when the cutting didn't help me at all. I think that's true of any coping skill.

Have you tried doing others things besides cutting? I know it's really easy to cut--almost second nature to us--but I just realized tonight that just getting up and doing something physical has the same effect on me as cutting...maybe it's worth a shot?

*hugs*

thanks guys.

my T made me sign a 'no harm' contract that means i have to call her before i do anything. and thats really annoying. no harm contracts are stupid.

my t hasn't had me sign one... but i have made a verbal promise to try and call him before i si... but i will call him if i plan to take it farther... i know it's frustrating at times but i have to admit it has kept me safe... and i know he cares... take gentle care...lyn

i really dont want to call my T but i really really want to cut right now. even if it does not help i still feel like i need to

I hope you were able to resist cutting. Did you decide to call your t? I hope you were able to stay safe.

BB

yeah i called her and i resisted the urge. but i still feel like a bad person for even having urges.