[inside]

gad the lights are back on they have been off since sunday . trying not to si ,but some times it feels like i'm loosing it and this the only way i can stay in reality becouse i know i'm not doing things wright becouse i cain't even rember hafe the stuff i do

I totally understand needing to SI to stay in reality.

Yesterday when I left T, I was not grounded and didn't feel like I could drive and knew if I could just SI I would feel better. But it felt disrespectful to do it right outside of T's office. I tried some other things to get grounded - sat on the curb in the sun, walked around a little, tried to notice the things around me in the car, and finally, I called a friend and she talked to me about really normal everyday stuff (like what she was eating for lunch) and finally I started to get grounded - and didn't have to SI.

Is there anything else you can try that helps you get grounded? Coloring works for me sometimes, talking to someone, going outside....

[MINIME]

Here is my latest trick. Drink some hot cocoa that is not hot nough to burn you but hot enough to feel it as you drink it.

[iamtwilight]

minime's idea is good! actually some scientific research has been made that chocolate makes you feel better (i think it's because it releases endorphins or some other thing that has a fine name). glad you have lights and are not SIing. i know it's sometimes the only thing that makes you feel real - but you know, you could try coming here and writing whatever you have in your mind. then we reply and you will see that you, indeed, are real! =)