I started cutting three yerars ago the last time was about 5 weeks ago i told my therapist and doctor who already knew say it was superficial and if i feel like doing it again call a crisis line iam afraid to do i have i scary feeling that iam going to cut because i think i need to be punished for things ive done

[tori2b]

I get that way most of the time and it's not that you need to be punished for anything.I guess we feel that way because of what we've been through and what others has done to us.I hope that you'll find peace soon and i know what you're going through.

[DoggyBonz]

So good for you by posting here...you took a very important step towards deciding that there were other alternatives. This is a type of crisis line except that you have many people to talk to instead of just one.

I can relate to feeling like you need to be punished for something you "think" you have done but do you think that just for this one time or the next time you feel this way you could ride out the feelings by writing about what you think you should be punished for, or trying to feel what is underneath the punishment and stay with those feelings for like 5 minutes or even just doing something else that will get your heart pumping. I know that sounds difficult and you might even leave your therapist a message telling him that you want to cut but are trying to develop other methods of dealing with it.

Even if you did so something wrong, you are human and make mistakes. Would you ever punish another person? I have been coming up against this the past few weeks and have just resisted the urge, not because I don't think I should but b/c I want to see what can change in my life if I don't.

Keep going...sounds like you are really trying to make some changes.