[Secret]

Gosh I'm only 65 and not sure anything is worth it anymore. It use to be all my mental heath concerns could be attributed to PTSD now the doc says I'm probably bi-polar to boot. (that's why all the adverse effects from the SSRIs) Physically all I had to worry about was the pain and sciatica from my spinal injury. Well that too has changed and now I'm incontinent and have foot drop. To top it off last year my heart went caput and I underwent a mitral valve replacement (I now oink) and double valve replacement. Then again my short-term memory is saying goodbye. I can't even get through making my morning coffee without forgetting what I'm doing. Use to say my intelligence was my best asset. Guess I don't have much in the way of assets now.

The doc's all ask me about a support system. Sorry it seems everyone is now gone. (dead, pushed away, or moved.)

I recently moved to a 55+ community in hopes of making some new friends and participating in some of the activities offered. Worked great for a few months then my spine decided I shouldn't be walking and oops 3 falls in a month.

The psych doc says I should be happy for what I do have and learn to live with it. Not sure I really want to.

[gayleggg]

I understand. It seems like since I turned 60 everything is breaking down. At least you tried to make life better. It doesn't seem like we have much to say about our health. All we can control is our attitude about it. I don't know about you but I'm having trouble with keeping a good attitude. I wish I had the choice of euthanasia.

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[Skeezyks]

Hello Secret: I'm so sorry you are having so much difficulty. I'm 67. I have allot of little physical problems that have accumulated over the years, including sciatica. However, I guess that I am fortunate that none of them seems to be having a serious impact on my day-to-day life at this point. Yes, I suppose your pdoc is correct as far as being happy for what you do have. But it's easier said than done. I once saw a quote that said: "Nothing is impossible for the person who doesn't have to do it." I do hope that you will be able to find a way to persevere. I'm sure it is difficult. I send warm thoughts your way with the hope that you might find that center of deep peace that resides within each of us.

[Secret]

Originally Posted by gayleggg

I understand. It seems like since I turned 60 everything is breaking down. At least you tried to make life better. It doesn't seem like we have much to say about our health. All we can control is our attitude about it. I don't know about you but I'm having trouble with keeping a good attitude. I wish I had the choice of euthanasia.

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[Nammu]

except for the heart and falls I have many of the same issues. Was first Dx PTSD then a whole bunch of stuff got much worse ( so many extra Dx I got thrown in there plus bipolar)when they added the ADs. About 7-8 years ago I refused to take them any more and things got better. Has spine surgery a few years ago the sciatica got better but I still have the nerve damage. Not sure why it is but there's many people here with spine problems as well as MI so your not alone.

[here today]

I understand, too, though my physical health seems to be holding out for the moment. For support, thank goodness for PC.

[Cat_Lover_58]

I'm 57 and can relate to the back pain. Since my car finally died a few days ago, I've been hoofing it and riding the bus back & forth. I'm tired and my hips hurt a little...hoping it'll be loosen up some of my muscle stiffness...we'll see...

I just love getting old-er!

[Angelique67]

I'm also 57 and my back gave out for good I'm afraid a few years ago. I can't stand up for more than a few minutes now. And I have terrible muscle pain in my arms plus permanent nerve damage. I feel like a total wreck.

[NATIVE56]

I'm 59 female and moved in a 55 + senior complex and 4 months later had to have emergency brain surgery (my 2nd), 5 months after that Dr. thought I had overian cancer and performed a full hysterectomy (no cancer) then 5 months later had neck surgery to fuse 7 of my 8 vertabraes and ended up with permanent damage to my right leg, but went from using a wheelchair to walker to cane-I'm grateful for my team of Drs, but wonder if I should have ever moved in here cause before I did I enjoyed life, was busy with trips, taking walks and excercising and now unable to do any of those things I enjoyed so much. Guess, that is just life...mine anyway.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by NATIVE56

I'm 59 female and moved in a 55 + senior complex and 4 months later had to have emergency brain surgery (my 2nd), 5 months after that Dr. thought I had overian cancer and performed a full hysterectomy (no cancer) then 5 months later had neck surgery to fuse 7 of my 8 vertabraes and ended up with permanent damage to my right leg, but went from using a wheelchair to walker to cane-I'm grateful for my team of Drs, but wonder if I should have ever moved in here cause before I did I enjoyed life, was busy with trips, taking walks and excercising and now unable to do any of those things I enjoyed so much. Guess, that is just life...mine anyway.

[Travelinglady]

I understand. I don't have as many issues as you do, but I am bipolar (diagnosed 15 years ago), have fibromyalgia, SPINE problems, etc. I am trying to accept limitations as they come along, but I sometimes think, I am almost 61 and in this shape, what if I live to be my mother's age-87?

[avlady]

i think i can relate with you. my mom fell and has to use a wheelchair now for over a year so far. she had a foot operation and is almost immoble. i can't imagine not being able to do things i used to do if it happened to me. i myself was injured in 3 accidents but can do a limited amount of stuff which i'm greatful for now.

Native 56, I understand. I was diabled at the age of 52. Had heart attacks, strokes, mini strokes, brain seizures and cancer that is in remission. I cannot do what i use to do anymore. I decided after my junk car died not to get another or to drive. I don't want to be responsible with another possible brain seizure while driving. People don't get it but us seniors do. So hang in there. I hear you completely. Blessings. Glad you have a good senior place to live and come back to. That is comfort knowing you have such support. tc

[AnnaBettina]

Seriously I do, too.

This getting older...

Quite suddenly I'm willing to confront my faith, my belief that others cared as much as I do, etc. Questioning my faith...you know, it occurred to me recently that I may have bought into a lie like almost every other human being. That we are so scared of our own mortality and that of our children, spouse, friends, etc. that all these so-called "truths" may be nothing more than man's attempt to deal with the coffin. He has, he has, to believe there is something more. There may not be, that's all I'm saying. Great fear otherwise for the majority of people.

And add on the physical problems, yeah, I agree with you, Gayle.

A well-intentioned friend said that there indeed has be a Creator. Just look around. And I said that yes, that's how the human mind operates, that something just can't exist. I left the conversation on that note but could easily have said who created your Creator and who created the creator who created yours, and on it goes.

To be honest I'm scared shitless of living, not of dying.

Anna

Originally Posted by gayleggg

I understand. It seems like since I turned 60 everything is breaking down. At least you tried to make life better. It doesn't seem like we have much to say about our health. All we can control is our attitude about it. I don't know about you but I'm having trouble with keeping a good attitude. I wish I had the choice of euthanasia.

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