Re: Porn Addiction

I don't watch porn but I do read stuff on another forum that really turns me on and its been the only way for about 2 years that I can do stuff. But I had a pocket rocket which worked great and was super discreet and didn't make any noise. I wasn't careful with it and it got chipped and I had to throw it out. But I finally ordered another one tonight. That forum was getting me down in the dumps and was frustrating me as well.

I was never into porn. But I did check out a bit of the on-line stuff a while back just to see what it was all about since I had read so many posts, here in the forums, about on-line porn disrupting peoples' relationships. I can see how people get hooked so easily and I suspect I could as well. So I make it a point not to go there again.

I have a raging porn addiction at the moment and it has been going on for about half a year now. This past year I have been on a steep downward slope, and also dealing with body image issues has made porn almost a way of validating myself and my need to feel wanted. Usually it is men with porn addictions so I haven't told anyone because that conversation is awkward and I don't want any of my peers to view me differently. I can't go a single day without watching it and while I "relieve" myself it feels so good, but then immediately after I feel dirty and that my perception of love and sex is tainted. I can't hold down a boyfriend because they can't satisfy me like porn can, because I'm alone and only have to worry about pleasing myself. With guys I just feel like I'm so hung up on pleasing them that I psych myself out. I was also sexually abused so my view of intimacy is so screwed up to a point where it can't be healed. On a ramble at this point but I had to get it out.

I admire reflecting on this and admitting to yourself! I'v got to that myself ...

I became addicted to watching porn because one of my brothers would always watch porn when he wasn't having sex in front of me. It took me a long time to fight my addiction. However I still slip up. I found that talking about it has help me with my addiction.

I've been looking at porn since I was about 8 years old. I can't remember when I wasn't to be honest. I'm not sure how to turn it around, can I ask what helps best to fight it guys? Is counselling the only option really ?

For many years downloading porn was my main way to ignore my panic disorder/agoraphobia, depression. Not so much masturbating. Just to kill time bc agoraphobia would for the most part set me back anyway. I also felt porn was therapeutic bc it made me happy & not having a girlfriend, porn was the closest to female companionship

One day my therapist asked me if I "self pleasure" and I wanted to bust out laughing. I mean, why didn't she just say "masturbate"? To me, "self pleasure" means like, if I go to the zoo by myself and buy myself ice cream while I'm there.

Anyway.

I was in a long relationship with a man who I'd say was close to be addicted to porn. Or maybe he was. And porn was apparently the way he had learned about sex, because while he was a romantic by nature he was absolutely awful in bed. Absolutely zero tenderness or affection, just "we perform at the same time." Flat.


So even thinking about seeing and hearing porn made me feel very sad. After that relationship ended I did look at some porn, but what intrigued me is how uncreative it is. Maybe I like erotica better. Costumes, romance, music, sex.


But the way porn is in general...so blah. Then I remembered that many years ago I saw the movie Boogie Nights. It hadn't really meant much to me. But for some reason the memory of that movie popped into my mind. So I watched it and I was glued to it. The movie was realistic. It gave me insight into the REAL people that are porn actors. That they're real people, real lives. Real ups, real downs. And that porn is just a business.


So Boogie Nights brought me to peace with porn. There's also a movie about Linda Lovelace and that also gives an excellent, extremely realistic portrayal of the porn industry. Education can bring peace.

I completely understand how you are feeling. I been there myself.

I am addicted to porn, I am in my mid-70s, it helps me through loneliness, and though my life I have had a spanking kink

Tbh, normal porn is uncreative. However I do know that there is content out there that is either more realistic or entertaining. I usually prefer those over "normal porn"/front page porn.

One of my mental ill brothers caused me to become addicted because that was what he always watched.

My relationship with Porn has been love/hate over the years. Religious beliefs aside, I thought I would always be "punished" by looking at porn and masturbating. I still feel the guilt and I don't watch porn nearly as often as I used to, but the dopamine shot that I felt afterwards became the real addiction. I have found other pleasures beyond the porn, and got to enjoy sex again, (amazingly), but the dirty secret I always had still haunts me to this day. Sure, there have been erotic roleplays, and "classier" versions of porn more related to erotica that can be pleasurable, but the release that it gives feels like such a relief, especially if you've had a long stressful day.

There are so many arguments about it, but there are so many doctors who would say masturbation is healthy and we shouldn't demonize it. It's a big conflict that I deal with though, and a line in the sand that is hard to understand what is good and bad.

it’s has taken me some time to manage my addiction

I also have a porn addiction, but in recent years this problem has escalated to visiting paid sex webcam pages and I have serious financial problems because I have spent a lot of money and I don't know what to do.

I've been addicted to downloading porn (illegally and legally) and ripped lots of scenes from retail DVDs the last 20 years and can't stop. It's been one of the only things I enjoy besides music because I have a severe mood disorder (and other disorders like dissociation as a teen, personality disorders, agitation) the last 45 yrs with virtually no relief after 5 ECT trials (37 treatments total), every medication, tons of hospitalizations and anhedonia has been real bad the last 15 years (the only things I enjoy now are music because I've played the guitar most of my life and porn) and been on disability most of my life. When I download I do it like 12 hrs a day and stay up til 6AM downloading and I TOTALLY forget about all of my severe symptoms and problems. I have well over 7 Terabytes of porn on hard drives and over 250 DVDs I've burned from scenes I've downloaded from every pornstar imaginable. When I found a pornstar I liked I had to have every one of their scenes. Ten yrs ago I had 2 huge boxes of DVDs that I burned (over 500) and I threw them all away because I lost my libido.Then I started back up again a few years ago. I can't really do it anymore because my energy is absolutely horrible especially since I started prozac 8 mths ago - all my multiple symptoms (absolutely tortuous mood, insomnia, can't relax or rest, zero energy, irritability, still don't enjoy people one bit after dissociating at 13) have been out of control.I've always had a high libido all of my life and first experienced porn in my teens. I'm not going to stop downloading because I love it.
I've had 4 girlfriends during my life and it never lasted long because I couldn't hold a conversation. I couldn't talk after I started dissociating in my teens/20s because I was so detached from myself and couldn't feel myself and couldn't talk most of my life and lost all my friends in high school and college.
I told my present psychiatrist that I download porn and he didn't say much and my father condemns me. He's the one that got me interested in porn as a teen because he used to buy Playboy magazine. I've always thought sex was a really positive and wonderful thing. (And I used prostitutes in the 90's and ran up my credit card debt and it was the best time of my life, imo.I met some beautiful women.)
I'm not really ashamed of porn because I enjoy it and it helps me forget about all my problems which nothing else has done. And I'm not religious at all.
I don't know what to tell you. Do you get pleasure from it? I'm in bad credit card debt too because I've bought some expensive things and heating oil is expensive.

I don't do it, and I'm not judgmental of those who do. Legal is the only way to fly, to protect other individuals, such as minors, and the privacy of those unduly influenced.