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This an intersection of a lot of different problems I am trying to deal with, but for the sake of simplicity I'm trying to just focus on the sleep-related aspect of it for this post. Obviously a complete solution would require addressing it from multiple angles.
I keep compulsively staying up late into the night following a certain pattern of behavior of using digital technology and sexually pleasuring myself, causing me to lose sleep, wake up late or not get enough sleep. This has been a problem for many years and its almost every single night at this point. I am so tired and confused every day from sleep deprivation and I believe over time it has resulted in a decline in my overall mental health. I need to break out of this cycle so I can advance my life forward. The routine is complex and it has evolved over the years:
There are many contributing factors making this worse:
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You are a creative, inventive, ingenious and resourceful person. May I ask if you are a woman? You mention a lot of orgasms in quick succession, so I assume that you are, but thought I'd still ask.
There is literally a sea of opportunities for someone with your skillset harnessing local LLMs and Stable Diffusion the way you are. And you do not need to leave home: there are more and more wfh jobs in AI. You can still be home for your siblings. Focus not on dealing with the problem you describe, as in "breaking a habit", because habits are much harder to break than to make (build), but on finding employment or at least freelance gigs that will enable you to start earning money again. Other good things will then follow. You can do it. Do not despair, start with baby steps, make progress, and you will get there. __________________ Bipolar I w/psychotic features Last inpatient stay in 2018 Geodon 40 mg Seroquel 75 mg Gabapentin 1200 mg+Vitamin B-complex (against extrapyramidal side effects) Long term side effects from medications, some of them discontinued: - hypothyroidism - obesity BMI ~ 38 |
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Sorry to disappoint but I am not in fact a woman, either by identify or by biology. I hope that does not change your opinion too much. The prospect of being transgender has been suggested to me by a few of my less closed-minded contacts but at this time I generally identify well enough with my assigned male gender for most purposes. When I said multiple orgasms, I generally meant multiple within a period of an hour or two, maybe as close as 15 minutes. However I will say that most of the sex education I ever took to heart was given more from a female perspective, because I don't usually resonate with the typical male role during sex.
As far as jobs in AI, or jobs in general, my attempts seem to keep getting sabotaged. Terrible tragedies keep hitting me and my family over and over and it's left me in a state of dissociation, bewilderment, and depression. It has been extremely difficult to learn anything substantially new about technology or find any clear sense of what I need to do. Last edited by GeneralRelative; Dec 24, 2023 at 09:31 PM.. |
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