[Shibo]

I left the man I love when I finally admitted to myself that I was/am an FTM transguy, because he is supposedly straight.
If he never said he loved me as *Fem name* then how could he love the real me, right?
Idk what I'm looking for in this post, I just wanna talk since I refuse to talk about it in RL. Heh, on here there's no way for people to see if I start crying, guess it's to keep up my toughguy image. *Sad smile*

If this is too personal, please feel free not to answer. Were you having sexual relations with him? If so, of what nature were they, e.g., man to your female (vaginal sex) or man to your male (**** sex)?

Did you tell him about yourself and give him time to reply? Or, did you merely presume that the reply would be negative and break off the relationship? While it could be hurtful if his reply is negative, a positive one would be a great emotional boost to you. I will let you make the decision based on what's best for you.

Sounds like, whatever you decide to you, it's time to reach out to other FTM people to make friends. Have you considered creating a social group for FTM people on this site?

[Shibo]

Originally Posted by unhappyguy

If this is too personal, please feel free not to answer. Were you having sexual relations with him? If so, of what nature were they, e.g., man to your female (vaginal sex) or man to your male (**** sex)?

Did you tell him about yourself and give him time to reply? Or, did you merely presume that the reply would be negative and break off the relationship? While it could be hurtful if his reply is negative, a positive one would be a great emotional boost to you. I will let you make the decision based on what's best for you.

Sounds like, whatever you decide to you, it's time to reach out to other FTM people to make friends. Have you considered creating a social group for FTM people on this site?

1. Not from lack of my pursuits, he was very religious (Christian) and said he was waiting for marriage.

2. There was a lot of on again, off again while I tried to figure myself out. I tried to be normal, and I dropped a lot of hints. But I didn't actually tell him until after the final split. His response was a typical, 'that's just disturbing', 'you're gunna go to hell', 'you need to snap out of it', etc. I hate his guts, but I hate mine more cuz I can't stop loving him.

3. Maybe, but this account will never be anything but annonymous because of my other problems.

[siempre nada]

Well in that case it was for the best. I hate to say it, but if he's that closed off to transgenderism its unlikely he'll want to be with you. As you said he doesn't even love you in your female appearance, than how will he love you when you transition into your true self?

[BDPpartner]

Ok this is very easy to say and in reality very hard to actually do but . . . . . Find and become the real you and love yourself. If you can't love and be true to yourself, how can you expect someone else to good luck on your journey there may be bumps in the road but just keep heading for your destination, when you get there you'll be so happy and i hope proud of yourself for making it

[GypsyRosalie]

Shibo, im sorry the guy was like that to you. thats rough. i dont really know where im goin with this post but i want you to know that someone cares k?

alex