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Location: Thunder Bay, Ontario
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Hi I have had a fetish for guys socked feet since an early age of 6, Im now over 50 and have enjoyed many encounters well over 40 sniffing the socked feet of many str8 males...During my childhood days I was subject to many senseless bare naked thrashings by my father and his belt, and when that wasn't happening I was left alot on my own or under his big manly black socked feet with session of sniffing his socks lasted up to an hour or so each time...The thrashings in my view gave me a very false sense of affection and security of wanting to be with another person, as I never liked to be touched, cuddled or close to anyone...unless it was a dominant male figure that would like to have his socks sniffed...Only after the sock sniffing session would end, I would masterbate over his foot being firmly placed in my face and through memory the smell of his sock. This has had an profound effect on me, as I don't know who I really am. I don't have sex with men or women, just the memory of a socked foot... Am I str8, bi or Gay...I don't think Im any...All I know is, it has left me a very lonely person in a world where most guys/people find this to be unacceptable as the challenge of finding other men that would share a moment with me becomes fewer the older I get...I have become in my mind very depressed knowing my life has become nothing more than a person having to exist...
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Sorry you had to go through that from your father. I wish I had advice. Do you think therapy would help? There are all kinds of people out there, maybe there is someone who can accept you for being you. I hope you can find some meaning for life. Feeling like your just existing is a aweful way to feel.
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There are therapists who subscribe to the school of thought that we are to confront our parents, but this is just one school of thought. Apparently, you followed the T's advice to no avail. Seek out another T, describe the previous T and the steps you took that did NOT help you, and see if you can find someone with alternative solutions.
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I hope you find someone! I think you need to talk to both T and ST and test them. Pick someone who is both knowledgeable and compassionate.
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Junior Member
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Location: Thunder Bay, Ontario
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I did try about 8 years ago to chat with a theropist, went thru 3 or 4 sessions, but all I wanted to do was sniff his socks...He spoke to me about how deep my fetish is burried in my subconscious mind, and that was the reason why I think of little else than the male foot....It was planted there in my early years when my father was smothering my face with his black socks...
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Location: Thunder Bay, Ontario
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I also remember in grade three..I was a difficult student, had a hard time learning...couldn't read or write very well, and my math was no better...Failed grade 3 and failed grade 5...very hard on me...but I remember on day in grade 3 we were doing art...We were suppose to paint a picture with the sun, green grass fences...you know the usual thing, well I instead just painted my art paper pure black...When the teacher approached me, she became very alarmed and began to ask me questions as to why I only used black paint...I remember not being able to answer her with any kind of a reasonable answer...She wisked my painting away from me and the next thing I knew I had serveral appointments set up for me with a theropist at the Montreal Childrens Hospital. They had me drawing things, building things, they had wires stuck to my head taking readings of my brain....it was quite the thing....I remember always feeling alone, I was in a world of my own. I'd wake up crying in the middle of the night. I would lay there wishing I wasn't born, and wanting to leave my family...It was like this most of my childhood....I know that this stems from my fathers abuse...After some of the thrashings, I wouldn't even know where I was...and would wake up in the middle of the night with my backside on fire...I try to look at school photos of me and I can't...I just can't stand to look into my eyes...Them photos are buried deep and hidden...
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Junior Member
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Hmm....looks like I struck out once again with another theropist...isn't it their field to want to work out someones problems what ever they are, or is it that only some theropist do certain things...?
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well...i hate to break it to you, but i think you are absolutely gay. and yes, lots of gay guys find their uncontrollable passion for male socked-feet much earlier than they realize that they are gay, for instance, me! I still remember when I was a little boy, maybe 7 yrs old, I would sneak into my grandpa's room and sniff his sheer socked-feet since he always slept with his socks on! i didn't know why i did that but those socked-feet seemed so tempting. i just couldn't resist them~! and when i turned 12 i learnt to jerk off, and yes, i think you have guessed it, i started to masturbate to my grandpa's socked-feet! I put my nose into his feet and sniffed so hard! and when i got a bit older, i knew i am gay. Now i am 26 yrs old and one hundred percent queer! i still have this socked-feet fetish. and guess what, i've found lots of gay guys who share this quirky hobby with me! you can find tons of pics on the Net where a man's sniffin' another man's socked-feet, which is damn hot btw. There's nothing wrong with having a little fetish, trust me. Don't worry about it. If you ask me, it's totally normal and hot! Hope this would help you man.
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