my sexuality

So you see my sexuality can be pretty complicated. I used think that sex was immoral, filthy, and disgusting. I used to think that sex should only be done for procreation and nothing more. Now i'm like sex can be allowed in a marriage if it's between the two partners. I still grapple with the thought of two men having sex with each other. I told people that I'm gay but at times i feel like i can be both bi because i notice girls sometimes. what do you think? there's one part of me that says i should support gays but there's another side that says i shouldn't because of what i have believed earlier and that my views should not be challenged...i should be strict and stuff like that? what do you guys think?

IMO anytime religion puts very strict and repressive rules, this causes problems. Repression often has the opposite affect. Humans are sexual beings, so sex just for procreation is unreasonable. I had a brother who was gay(deceased now) and don't believe its wrong. Some teenagers feel confused about their sexuality, especially since you've view porn quite a bit -you might wonder why gay porn affects you a certain way. Some also believe sexuality is fluid but its not for everyone. If you haven't had a real life experience, this is another factor. Try not worry and don't let religion stress you out more.

the fact that i've been worried about losing my salvation and that homosexuals don't make it to heaven has always killed me. made me sad a couple of times.

Some religions may say this but IMO I don't believe this. If God made all humans, then he made gay people too right?

Your major mistake is the use of "should". As long as there is a "should" in your mind, with respect to sex, you are not living your life yet.