[MrNoName]

This is difficult for me to explain, so I’ll just try and be as blunt and clear as I can.

I have a fetish for fat, I like fat girls, I also find people gaining weight (including myself) to be a massive turn on; It all sort of falls under the fetish “Feederism”. This is not a recent thing, even before I hit puberty I remember being fascinated by fat people, and then when I started noticing girls in that way, I was always attracted to the fat ones more.

I was for a long time what is known as a “feeder”, someone who gains sexual gratification from feeding, and helping a “feedee” gain weight. A feedee is someone who gains sexual gratification from gaining weight and being fed. However I remember when I was about 13 I quite liked the idea of getting fat, but never did and the thoughts went away. Anyway, in the last couple of years the urges to get fat have come back, and after dating a woman who was into fat guys, I decided to put on a bit of weight.

Now, all of the above doesn’t bother me as long as it’s between two consenting adults who both enjoy it, but I’m starting to become confused by what I want. When I’m turned on I fantasise about stuffing my face and getting very fat, and often give into these urges and scoff a lot of fattening foods, but as soon as I have orgasmed, and any other time I’m not horny, I want to lose weight and banish these desires. It’s almost like Jekyll and Hyde, the change in desire is that strong and that opposite! As a result I’m getting stuck in a cycle of a few days of dieting and exercise, then a few days binging and stuffing. I don’t consider this an eating disorder, as it is completely driven by sexual desire.

What do I do? Should I give in to my sexual desires? Or should I repress them? Neither sounds like a good option.

[Phreak]

Paraphillias are chronic

Weight gain, and being over weight generally aren't healthy and have all sorts of potential side effects. Especially when connected to frequent weight loss/gain

[MrNoName]

Originally Posted by Phreak

Paraphillias are chronic

Weight gain, and being over weight generally aren't healthy and have all sorts of potential side effects. Especially when connected to frequent weight loss/gain

Yeah I'm completely aware it's unhealthy, but isn't repressing your sexuality unhealthy as well? I don't know what to do