[Tightslife]

Just thought I would confess somewhere. I am a young male with a fetish for being in tights/spandex and feminine clothing since i was blessed with a small frame and a bubble butt. Every now and then I get the urge to dress up and try and meet up with an older "bear" type masculine man to basically be dominated. Not in the BDSM sense but just totally feminized by the guy. When I fantasize about it, it is a huge turn on, but as soon as I get off I am completely over it. I don't know why that huge urge is there and then just disappears once i've finished my business. It's just like being totally fem and enjoying the moment and then back to being a man in a flash and wanting to be as far away as possible from that situation. It has been that way since I was a child and as I get older nothing has changed. Is there anyone else who experiences this?

[Travelinglady]

So far no one has said they have. But I think it might be pretty common for people to fantasize about the different roles.

[Tightslife]

thanks payne1 i believe it, its just tough when you don't hear anyone else say it. i have had sex with one guy before and it made me so anxious i wasn't sure i would ever do it again. but i always get the urge to give it another go kinda like its built in, even though i try to steer my thoughts in the other direction. i want to be hetero but obviously i have a major issue.

[Lonely_90]

A lot of people have fetishes, and its ok. You could be bi-curious. You want to be with a woman, but like to "play" with men too.. exploring your sexuality is good

[AppalachianAxis]

I would never admit to this in a bajillion years if it weren't for internet anonymity, but I've done the cross-dressing thing once or twice. Although never outside the privacy of my own room. It's always after a period of time when I've tried to go cold-turkey on masturbation, so I get really, I guess the term is "pent-up." That always leads me to some weird binge in the end.
I also experience that same turn-around you describe, although to a bit more of an extreme degree. I've physically hurt myself more than once in the past because I felt so terrible and ashamed over what I'd allowed myself to do.
So I wouldn't say you're alone. There's likely a lot of people who experiment this way a least a little who aren't too keen on talking about it, even in the anonymous environment of the internet.