ABDL? Anyone?

I know it's weird to be posting on here, but I've been curious about fetishes.

I've been kind of interested in one fetish, particularly ABDL. I've always felt the need and want to be back in diapers again, and I now fantasize about wanting be babied all over again by a daddy (not my current dad)

I remember talking to my mom about this and she didn't get why, and then I said, "Maybe it's because I want to relive my childhood years again, and I want something that comforts me."

So does anyone here partake in ABDL or am I the odd one out?

I do know that there's not a substantial amount of psychological research on it - well, none that I was able to find

I actually used to be a moderator on a well known forum among ABDLs for over a year. That particular website is aimed more towards support for ABDL and incontinence related issues, rather than targeting the more sexual side of the fetish.

I came to the site more so due to having incontinence issues, since I found incontinence support forums to be some what depressing. I found being around people that had more of an interest in diapers to be more comforting than being around people that only used them due to medical needs. I find there is more of an up beat attitude among ABDLs with regards to diapers.

Like many of the people on the site with incontinence issues, I have grown over time to have a DL interest. I find that it does make a good coping mechanism too. I however don't have an AB interest, but I now have many friends that do.

When I was five years-old, I wet myself after waiting for someone to get done in the shower and I was punished by being made to wear a diaper. It's the earliest memory I have of this and I consider it to be the triggering moment that made me obsessed with the idea of wearing and using diapers well into my teens.

I am a DL. I'm not an AB so much as I don't like the idea of being helpless, but I do have fantasies that tie in with being changed and cleaned up.

I've been waiting for the right time to try to post about these feelings, so I appreciate you for starting the thread.

I'm wearing a diaper right now. And not because I need to. Sigmund Freud's theory 'The Seven Stages Of Psychosexual Development' might help you connect a few dots in the bigger picture.
Have you been through any traumatic experiences? The reason I ask is because I have been through several. A Traumatic Brain Injury. A couple of years in reform school. A few more in prison. My father committed suicide. And a couple of bad relationships to name a few. Anyway I think PTSD is definitely a catalyst in my case. It seems the farther away from childhood I get, the more I long to go back to it.
There's a lot more to it than just diapers. I want a woman to play the role of a very strict step-mother who just loves giving *** whippings. Belt, paddle, switch, whatever. And I want her to do it like she fu**in' means it. I even want her to make me cry. I don't know if that's even possible, but I sure do want it. Then a diaper and baby-bottle would be fabulous.
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