Gender Identity

Hello all, I am new to the group. To get to the point I am a biological male that has been experiencing an increase in my feminine side. I am in my
50's and only began crossdressing four years ago. I have been in a monogamous relationship with a woman for nearly 5 years. My girlfriend sensed that I had "special" qualities. She helped bring these qualities forward
for me. I fully crossdressed for the first time four years ago which included
full makeup, jewely etc.

For the longest time I only felt my feminine, girly side when I dressed in full femme. Lately I have been feeling more girly and feminine when not crossdressing. Sometimes I want to go out dressed as a woman. It has gotten to the point that I want to find the most feminine guy clothes and shoes I can find so I can feel more fem when I go out as a guy.

One main issue is that my girlfriend supports my crossdressing but she doesn't want to live with a woman even 50% of the time. She tells me that she needs a man. Lately I have felt more like a woman than a man. I see women when I am out that look so feminine and I want to be them. I find myself jealous of women because they get to be women everyday and I can't.

I don't know what to do going forward. My girlfriend is the only person that
knows about my feminine side.

Sometimes I wish I had been born a girl. I go to bed at night and think that if I woke up as a woman I would be in heaven.

Does anyone else have these type of thoughts and can you help me?

Thank You,
Lil

It's common. I think you may be transgender. What I mean by that is that your ¨gender¨ in your mind, could potentially NOT match your ¨sex¨ assigned to you at birth. If that's the case, you are far from alone.

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Hi Lil: I'm a 66 year old male who has been transsexual (MtF) his entire life. However I never transitioned, I'm married, & I continue to live an outwardly more-or-less normal male life. (Like you, I do wear feminine-looking men's clothing, jewelry, etc.) There are quite a few Threads, in the Transgender Forum, which I opened writing about my experiences as a life-long transsexual. You can read them if you want to know more about me. I'd also like to suggest that this Thread would probably see allot more activity if you copied it over onto the Transgender Forum.

You asked if anyone else has these thoughts & if they can help you. Well, I've lived my entire life with these thoughts. I've also done allot of reading on the subject of transsexuality. So I know allot about it from personal experience & also as a result of book learnin'. Can I help you? Well, I don't know the answer to that. I'd like to think so. I'm sure willing to give it my best shot! Feel free to continue to post over in the Transgender Forum and / or also feel free to personal message me. I love to talk trans stuff!

Hi Lil,

I'm a bio female but identify as genderqueer/nonbinary for the time being, leaning towards male. I have never been a girl or woman, but I didn't realize until now (or didn't have the urge to express) that I'm genderqueer - I'm 38 now, so it took me a while to figure out. Like The Skeezyks, I'm married. I'm out to my husband, but I'm not sure he understands or what he makes of this. I have no idea what he would think of me further masculinizing my appearance or getting top surgery.

See you over at the trans* forum maybe :wave: