Am I straight?

I'm still questioning my sexuality, but I believe that I might be straight. I'm young, just a teen, so it's something normal, right? Now, what I don't think it's supposed to be normal is my fear of being straight.

Yep, I'm afraid of being "normal" through society's eyes and I have no idea about what I should do to stop feeling this way. Since I noticed that I had a crush on my best friend of the same sex I got used to not see myself as straight anymore, but... The lesbian label doesn't feel right for me and I show clear signs that I find men attractive. I'm honestly unable to see females in such a sexual way as I do with males.

If I were asked to describe my attraction to both sexes, the answers would be very different.

When I find a guy attractive, I find myself looking at his face(mostly the eyes), chest, maybe even his butt... I'm able to talk about how guys are attractive with other women too. Sometimes I have sexual fantasies about them. I'm rarely the one engaging in sexual activities with the man though. There were very few times I imagined myself doing anything with the guy and I felt uncomfortable while doing so most of the time.

Things are different with women. I never feel the urge to talk about how women are beautiful, sexy, their boobs like people attracted to them would. What makes me believe that I feel attracted to them is the fact that I already falled in love with girls before. I felt as if something dragged me to them. I had the need to talk to them. Stay close to them. Sometimes my heart would beat faster. Sometimes I'd love to kiss and touch them... The way I'd describe my attraction to them were very far from the one most people use today. I can't find anything "dirty" or "filthy" about the way I feel about them. If I were asked to write down what I feel about them it'd become something very close to what a romantic poet would write about his beloved princess.

So... As you can see, things are very different for those genders and I don't know which one I should use to describe my sexual orientation. Am I a straight person that just haven't found the right guy or a not perverted lesbian?

i think as young as you are that you need not worry about what your sexual identity is. you have lots of time to explore this issue and it will probably go back and forth several times before you make a decision a decade from now. And you leave out the possibility of being bi and loving both guys and girls.

Some people are bisexual.