[Yismymindblank12]

I feel I get off to the fact of being a male stripper.... I've had a strange want to become one. I feel that I do just to feel as a form of feeling a shock I guess that I'm not bad looking? Not sure.. On that but rather I'd rather figure out stuff I struggle with sex with partners I have, but this came from my ability to be a showman. I do believe I have some talent to being one or stamina with erotica movements.

I work out alot after a year of bulking and weight loss. I look quite muscular, but another year of this I should see very obvious results. They are now, but I have a light final layer of small fat/skin. Hardly noticeable but it makes my working out difficult to see results and workout everyday. I run weights walk light exercises and I did this out of self motivation after bring emotionally sick of settling for my old body and shaming myself.

Maybe I was doomed and shown less affection and sought it out in relationships that heavily focused on my appearance even though ironically dated much more over weight than now with it gone completely and muscles are building over the final parts. My stomach which I've focused more because I want Hollister model look even though its unhealthy. I want it.

It may seem sad, but people don't realize how what some women treated me affected me both negatively and positively with sexist unrealistic expectations of the male anatomy and I used to believe this shaming never happens but I find out the hard way no one is safe. I feel that if I worked the body I've worked for and keep it as a prize for myself not share it stay abstinent it may show how healthy i am. Even though I'm struggling with the self hatred day in say out about my penis my hair, my face, my stomach everything. Over many years bring told I'm not good enough by women in nice or harsh ways. I've cane to terms I just want to prove people wrong.

Or maybe I'm appear as over inflated ego. And its ok to say no to me and reject me, but not ok to tell me I'm not good enough by my looks or lack of things I didn't have at the time.

Recently I get checked out more from it alot more. For once it's starting to work. Like I empathize women who go through this take so many emotional blows from men and society they decide to compromise and change there looks even if they like the results or not. The reality is real of what core values we don't acknowledge like self respect and kind generosity but hot chizzled chin, facial hair no facial hair, groomed and tamed, professional sexy men or sexy women who are to appease men. But I thank women who are like me don't care what others think they are provocative by nature being secy for their self not for anyone else.

I have a friend she's a model and is such a kind girl makes lots of money but like me she is nude or not for professional career but dresses highly sophisticated and good fashion taste for self expression not for anyone except herself.

So it comes clear to me why I find being a male stripper enticing. It's to show freedom of hard work on myself in a strange way that accomplishment is hot to me.

Someone help explain this? It makes sense but why is this?

[healingme4me]

Maybe to receive attention that's been missing? Not certain if there's an exact scientific rationale for this being a considered career path, for you?

[Yismymindblank12]

Originally Posted by healingme4me

Maybe to receive attention that's been missing? Not certain if there's an exact scientific rationale for this being a considered career path, for you?

Yes exactly what I mean. That's it. I've not received it enough ever. It's made everything feel very empty and hard to deal with. Rather I don't give other people attention either it's turned me into that, but I like to go out and draw attention sometimes, because I enjoy putting on a show.