[Tokyohands]

I am an 18 year old male who has always been attracted to females, when i was a little boy before puberty i had girl crushes and all through puberty i used to fantasize about girls my age and masturbate ovet straight porn. However i got bored of my first gf as i lost attraction to her as she was skinny with no boobs or bum(worry 1). I love girls bums and i think my fetish are girls with fat *** and take ****(worry2). I also am currently in a relationship with a very attractive girl. However i am starting to lose attraction to her as the 'hooney moon period' has past and i found myself imagining her to be other girls. I am also very frustrated with the number of sexual partners ive had. Anyway last month i smoked weed and while high i thought to myself 'am i gay' i freaked out. The day after i had a very low sex drive and didnt have sex with my gf. That lead me to question my sexuallity and have a panic attack. A month later and its ruining my life i have the constant fear that im 'turning gay' or was 'gay all along' or i am a closet homosexual. This is affecting my attraction towards girls and i struggle to even masturbate without getting anxious. However, i have had sex 3 times this month. All being successful. Also i have never found a guy sexually attractive in my life, never fancied one, never fantasized or masturbated over one. Why do i have such a low sex drive and fear of being gay for?

[Alone_and_Afraid]

I read this, and I guess it has triggered something in me. I can't help to worry that my boyfriend of three years is going to lose interest me because he's 18 as well. He reassures me he will never lose interest in me, but now I'm really afraid.

[Keyslost]

Tokyo what you have there imo is too much stress. It can kill libido faster than anything. Take some time for yourself try to relax a bit The fact that you don't find guys attractive I believe by definition means you aren't gay.

Just my opinion - it almost sounds like you're lusting after certain girls. Is there anyone you can connect with and be physically attracted to? Am I understanding this wrong?