[Misstrauisch]

Hi. I´m really sorry if this is too long. I really try too express what i feel my sexual orientation is in a clear. I apologize again for it being so long. I hope you guys can help me. ¿Should i go a see professional?
I Question my sexual orientation due to the following characteristics:

Respecting Sexual attraction: I feel sexually attracted to male sex and female sex. Although when I fantasize about them I feel a certain disavowal( I use this term as in repudiation). The degree of disavowal is different depending on the sex I fantasize about.

When I fantasize about the female sex and relief myself trough masturbation I feel a certain disavowal to what I've done during the process(masturbation)and I`m never able to finish with the taught of it (sexual intercourse with the female sex) in my mind.

When I fantasize about the male sex. I feel a strong disavowal when I`m done relieving myself (AKA: Masturbating)

P.S: I`m really sorry if my use of the term "sexual" in sexual attraction is being misused.

Respecting my physical attraction:
I feel a strong physical attraction towards the male and female sex.
P.S: I think the previous explanation is important to explain, due to the fact that sometimes I feel as labeling myself towards asexual. But as the label gay and bisexual I find them insufficient, to define my sexual orientation.

Respecting my romantic attraction: I feel I have no romantic attraction towards others. Due to this I tend to question if I`m asexual( referring to this term in a binary definition, for one as no sexual attraction toward others and as no romantic attraction toward others). I tend to label myself asexual, understanding it in the second definition I said.

Respecting my emotional attraction: I feel I've only established emotional relationship with friends and family members. Although this relationship tends to be changeable. I say the previous statement due to the fact that through out the emotional relationship i feel a powerful disavowal toward the person in the emotional relationship and toward the emotional relationship. Mainly because of it useless meaning to me.
P.S: I`m really sorry if my definition of a sentimental relationship is wrong. Taking into account that, maybe, universally it`s understood in another way.

[Webgoji]

Personally I think a therapist would be good to help you work through this. But basically it sounds more like you're struggling with accepting yourself more than anything. What matters is that you get comfortable with being who you are and a therapist I think could really help.

[norwegianwoman]

Not feeling romantic attraction is aromantic. Not feeling sexual attraction is asexual. Some people are both. But if you feel sexual attraction, though not romantic attraction, then you are aromantic most of all.

Miss, I agree with Web and Nor on this. I struggle with my sexual identity and orientation but I now except who I am and what I am. Seek out a good therapist, esp a sex therapist and explore with them what you have posted; find someone you are comfortable with to discuss this with. I have a difficult time discussing my sexual life style with all of the people on my team (yes I have a team).

Sexuality is not always so clearly definable, especially when you are simply talking about fantasies and/or what you might be interested in. It may ultimately be up to you to decide who you are interested in sexually, and you might not be able to say that you are exclusively attracted to one gender or the other. If it is causing you a lot of stress, see a therapist about it.

[Misstrauisch]

I really want to thank all of you for replying. I think you are all right. It might be that I'm not accepting myself for who I really am or maybe it's something else. The thing is, that I might find a more accurate answer with a therapist, just how you all said.

[Misstrauisch]

I really want to thank you all for your comments. Maybe my whole confusion is due to me not accepting who I really am, or maybe it could something else. And I think I´ll take your advice and go to a therapist. Maye that will clarify it all.