feeling that smth bad will happen after certain fantasies

bicur · Dec 19, 2015 at 01:48 PM

Hi,
I have noticed that if I masturbate watching either bisexual or gay porn movie/clip - usually next day or in the next few days - something bad happens. Either a quarrel or something bad at work. Also if I watch a porn material that is sensual in nature, beautiful women then everything is all right. And if I want something good happen tomorrow then the best result is to watch interracial porn. I did noticed correlation between these seemingly unrelated events. I know its sounds crazy... but i avoid for example watching any gay type materials. (i m not gay but some times certain things to excite)
Does this fall into some sort of psychological problem or maybe smbd experienced same thing. Can anybody shed some light into this?
Any help is appreciated...
thx

Dec 19, 2015 at 07:42 PM

Guilt and shame. You feel guilt and shame. You are subconsciously punishing yourself.

Artchic528 · Dec 20, 2015 at 04:37 AM

Hmmm. I believe Valentina is right. You're subconsciously projecting your guilt and shame over your sexuality and porn viewing preferences onto your day to day life. If you believe strongly enough that something is happening, then to you, it is happening.

Let me assure you that you're perfectly normal in every way sexuality wise and that watching gay or bisexual porn won't ever result in having a bad day. You simply feel the correlation is real based on mental perception.

Maybe you can further explore this guilt and shame with a T or post about it here for moral support and reassurance that all sexualities are normal.

And FYI, once you accept yourself for who you are, it's the most liberating experience in the world, let me tell ya. Nothing compares to it as far as I know. I felt like a huge weight was lifted from me. Yup. My dark clouds parted and the sun shone through.

It's easier to let go and accept, rather than to fight...and healthier too.

bicur · Dec 20, 2015 at 07:49 AM

Thank you very much for your responces Valentina and Artchic528.

I just wanted to specify that I do not perceive to experience any guilt or shame. Its was the other way around: I noticed correlation between events and thought to myself - how the hell its possible.

Webgoji · Dec 21, 2015 at 07:42 AM

First, there's absolutely nothing wrong with enjoying gay porn.

Second, I doubt it's so much that things are actually happening as you are noticing them because you're on alert. Much like people say every time they look at a clock it's 9:11. It's not that it's the only time they look at a clock, it's just that they're noticing it when it happens.

So what's likely happening is that there's something subconscious going on that has you on edge. Possibly like Valentina was saying, but it's a deep-seated shame that you don't even realize is there. Maybe something else? Then you notice things like a quarrel or something at work when normally you wouldn't think to notice it.

bicur · Dec 21, 2015 at 04:20 PM

I actually look at a clock on exactly 22:13 pretty much everyday.... and when I park my car in a garage and go home I need to go through exact path between a column and another car.... otherwise - not good...

similar thing happened to me when I was younger and I would secretly smoke a cigarette and then some trouble would happen... Even now days it works.... Thats why I avoid smoking...

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Originally Posted by Webgoji

First, there's absolutely nothing wrong with enjoying gay porn.

Second, I doubt it's so much that things are actually happening as you are noticing them because you're on alert. Much like people say every time they look at a clock it's 9:11. It's not that it's the only time they look at a clock, it's just that they're noticing it when it happens.

So what's likely happening is that there's something subconscious going on that has you on edge. Possibly like Valentina was saying, but it's a deep-seated shame that you don't even realize is there. Maybe something else? Then you notice things like a quarrel or something at work when normally you wouldn't think to notice it.

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Anonymous37883 Guest Posts: n/a	Dec 19, 2015 at 07:42 PM #2 Guilt and shame. You feel guilt and shame. You are subconsciously punishing yourself.
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bicur New Member Member Since Dec 2015 Location: Canada Posts: 5 8	Dec 20, 2015 at 07:49 AM #4 Thank you very much for your responces Valentina and Artchic528. I just wanted to specify that I do not perceive to experience any guilt or shame. Its was the other way around: I noticed correlation between events and thought to myself - how the hell its possible.
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