I like something very specific.

I don't like specifically threesomes foursomes etc. they are meh ok on average if it's any old group thing. Personally I am into something much deeper and harder to find. I want to find or would like to find, but I like to see two people I like as in doesn't matter in genders who the two people are, but they know me very well and like me. Open minded people, but both are attractive together either best friends or friends or two people dating.

Like two people who trust me a lot and want me to watch and join with them having sex. I don't care about the logistics and specifics I don't think about those with sex ever only if told to me as a reminder, but something more the along the lines of.

I'm addicted to love more than sex, if invited to what I like that other people enjoy it's not for an extended period of time just for a moment. I don't want to be in a relationship with both people, but as an invited guest either both in a form of gratitude and something they both find hot specifically with me.

That for along while has been a fantasy I really like a lot. My two favorite combinations of that are male and female hopefully bi male and female or two females that aren't actually lesbian or bi or are bi they just are doing it in the moment because it's something they can agree it's hot just as a one time thing which either or I don't mind.

I knew a few people ever who were close to that, but they are always too busy for me. So it's something I wanted to be apart of. I could go into more specifics, but I want to cut this short that's all. I'll be happy to explain more about it.

So, if I understand this, you wanto be the 3rd person for a "couple". People that r already in a relationship.
I don't see the problem here, except finding a couple. Is that an issue?
I see it advertised all the time on Craigslist type stuff.
But I would say go into this with open eyes. Rules & agreements beforehand so feelings aren't hurt.

Exactly, what I'm saying. It's hard even if once. I just want to know what it's like.

*nothing to see here*

I'm sure you can find that scenario thru social media. But just so you know it won't be like porn.
There'll need to be rules, boundaries & several discussions. Plus to cover yourself, paperwork on STD's etc.
If these other people are a couple then they have their own dynamic. You might be termed "disposable" if things don't work out.
There's always the unspoken issue of "competition" in size areas, etiquette & what to do with...down time...when you might be side lined.

Many things to consider that r behind the scenes.
I do hope you find what you're looking for & it goes well for you