Struggling

I apologize if this is graphic...... So don't read further if you think you may be offended or upset
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I don't know where else to post this and it might be considered a little graphic or what I'm not sure...
But anyways to get to the point I was talking online to this guy and he said you know since we're closeby why don't we get together and watch a movie. So I agreed and he came over and we were watching a movie sitting on the couch and I was drinking a little so maybe I was a little more relaxed than I am usually but not to blame that, I did what I did and have to deal with it. He said he'd like it if I massaged his legs, so I did he was laying on the couch with his legs in my lap which now I see as maybe a bit inappropriate in retrospect but anyway and it went from that to rubbing his torso to rubbing his manhood-- wasn't sure what I can say if it will be edited-- but yea and so he stayed after he was done for a while and then gave me a hug said thanks for having him over and left. I guess I set myself up like I'm oddly glad that he enjoyed himself and liked his reaction or noises of pleasure but when it came to me I didn't really get anything out of it.... My question is this is this wrong? Does doing something like this make me a ***** or something? Is there something wrong with me? Like I've been kind of building up to these sexual things for a while now that I think about it. I am supposed to have someone over tomorrow who I trust because I've talked to him about a lot of things and he says he's wanting more of a serious relationship and stuff-- like he said he wants a girlfriend I guess, you know and I told him what I thought and was upfront and honest with him. So I do trust him maybe cause he said he wanted to really take things slow and what not and he seems like a genuinely nice guy... I had plans with him before I even talked to this guy tonight.... Is that wrong that this happened? Is this something I need to disclose to this guy because we agreed to see if things got serious or something? Any answers or attempts at one are appreciated and helpful. Thanks.

Oh hon I wouldn't say you're a ***** over this. I am concerned though, for your safety! You met him online? How old are you and how old is he? I can understand why you're glad that you gave him pleasure, I just really worry that he coerced you into this and I'm glad it didn't go any farther. Please give us more details about this person, I have a bad feeling about it. NOT a bad feeling about you, but a BAD one about him. A lot of people go online specifically to find someone they can take advantage of. Do you ever watch 'To Catch a Predator' on Dateline? Its scary....decoys chat with these guys and say they're young teens and the guys go to meet the girls and find cameras and cops instead. This is becoming a huge threat for women, teens or not. That's why I'm curious how old you and he are. I'm just concerned for you. That bad feeling in your gut might just be your intuition telling you it might not have been safe to meet this guy.

Please tell us more, and don't see him again......

I just turned 23. He was 30- something... can't remember exactly. I'm not sure if I agree with being coerced but it was like it was on some level like he was hinting around by placing my hand above his pants and stuff. And I think you're probly right; probly not a good idea to see him again. It was kind of hey we're both not doing anything type of thing, so why don't we just chill or hang out and watch a movie? I had made plans earlier in the week for tonight. I'm meeting someone who I've actually been in touch with a lot longer. I've talked to him on the phone numerous times. He seems nice and basically said it's up to you what you want to do or not do and we talked a lot about things and expectations, boundaries, and other pretty important stuff. He basically said he wants to meet and we'll do whatever I feel comfortable with and stuff he's 33 so 10 years older than me but he seems genuine and I guess I'll have to wait and see-- by the way their will be no drinking or drugs involved; I'm pretty sure he doesn't do either, and I've already made up my mind; so hopefully it's turns out well.... I think we may just be going to the movies-- like Harry Potter or something, there can't be anything to hot and heavy about Harry Potter, right? lol