thing for teen boys

I am a gay adult (young 20s) and I’ve been out to other people about my sexuality for about 3 years now, having relationships with people my own age or older for the same time.

As I’ve gotten older I’ve become more aware of how unchanging my attraction towards teenaged boys has been. It's that look and the way they are that they have that I find draws my eyes. It started when I was 10 but didn’t bother me since I was basically one of them for ten years, who cared? It’s beginning to unsettle me since I find that I am now rarely drawn to people my own age, unless if they are ‘cute’ or ‘fresh’ faced. I started watching gay porn around the same time as well, and the majority of the guys you’d consider twinks (look it up). I wonder whether it might just be me being overly picky for nice looking guys.

Has anyone else had experience with this? Could my porn use over those years affected my developing brain, or was my preference already set beforehand?

I want to know if anyone else on the forums here shares the issue.

Meh

Note:
I don’t feel a need to have a relationship with a teenager, because lately I am dealing with other personal issues that limits my ability to hold a relationship anyway. Also there’s obviously the issue of most of them not being ready for emotional demands of relationships with adults, hence why it’s not socially acceptable. Don’t worry about me on that front, also understand that the age of consent is 16 here.

I am a woman. I have watched gay porn in the distant past out of curiosity on pornhub.. I found regular men in videos to be a bit unpleasant for me, but 'twinks' I could definitely stomach. I had no previous gay porn experience. Some of them are pretty effemenite. I think its not a result of porn but just your preference.
Even for straight men, the "teen" industy is booming. It is kind of common for men to fantasize about younger bodies in general, I guess.

I have no idea how one could kick this attraction/fantasy, though. D:

You are only 20 so you are barely outta ur teen yrs urself. But pre pubescent to young teens...you are bordering on kiddie porn there..that I would DEF. AVOID. But older teens like 16- your age...is not abnormal they are still in ur age range... but obviously don't engage with anyone under 18 cuz you could get slapped with statutory rape charges. I am a woman but I think that regardless of gender or sexual orientation it is very common esp with porn to fantasize about that feeling or age of coming into physical sexuality... porn obviously when over viewed can desensitized and confuse our rational minds. But in moderation, gay, hetro, lesb, bi porn there are a lot of actors that are18+ that "play" younger...and I think as long as it does not become a fixation where you fail to mature naturally in your sexual desires...it serves in way like a memory fantasy almost. You are still very young, but I think regardless of age,we all have times where we want to relive or recapture periods of our youth vicariously. And there's nothing wrong with that as long as it's all legal and consensual. But maybe try to give the porn a bit of a break for a while if you feel like you are getting stuck. Hope this helps. Be safe.

I think you just have a propensity toward twinks and as your age you tastes will change. You are not that old. You are going to drive yourself crazy with these thoughts. You know the difference between right and wrong, and as long as you don't feel any urge to cross the line you are fine. It is hard enough to have the stigma of being gay. Enjoy your sexuality and don't make things harder for yourself.

Thanx April for having my back and helping clean up my rambling messes ((hugs)))

Thank you for the reassurance. I think I might be amplifying the issue by contrasting myself to people who are into older guys.

I don't find it distressing per se since thankfully I'm after more than just looks. A good looking guy with a suited personality might do fine in future I think. I am initially drawn by looks, and I'd say right now it's a mature looking 14 upwards to someone who appears 18/19. In terms of porn, as much as I may or may not enjoy that range, I stick to the boundaries considering the ethics etc. I'll see if I can cut back on it for a while to just wait and see.

Im glad we could help you work some stuff out Physical attraction is key to a lasting relationship so I dont think wanting to find a good looking partner is shallow at all. And it doesnt matter if you are still watching young "twink" porn when you are 50. As long as it is legally and consentually made its fine. Porn is about indulging in fantasy, so there is no wrong as long as its not unhealthily causing problems to y your self, relationships, and life.