Sexual impact from watching graphic TV as child?

So I am a 24 year old female with a great boyfriend and I am having some confusing times right now.

Question: Is it possible that because my mom made us watch these graphic shows about sexual abuse and violence concerning men/husbands and children/wives growing up that now I am having anxiety/panic attacks while having sex with my SO? I'm wondering if I'm just psyching myself out or if I need to seek help. Thank you for any time or wisdom you may be able to share.

Problem: I have trouble being sexually aroused a lot by my boyfriend of 2 1/2 years. I really have to get my head in the game. Then sometimes when It comes down to it, I end up thinking about other things on my mind, and sometimes my dad, which throws me into a panic, and It's really hard to stay aroused so I fake it til it's over. Sometimes I feel like I'm in a dream and I have to tell myself that the person I'm having sex with is really my boyfriend and not my dad so I don't scream or get sick.

Background:
I recently happened upon an old video title that I remembered seeing when I was a kid, "Bastard out of Carolina". It was a film that came out in 1994, and the story surrounded a broken, impoverished family in the south in the 50's. At some point in the movie the mother of two daughters re-marries a man, who ends up being abusive. In this movie there are two sex scenes, both between the step father and one of the daughters "bone" who is 12. The first one is subtle but very telling, and the second scene is pure horror through violent rape.

That being said, I remembered watching this on TNT when I was fairly young, I can't remember how young though Maybe I was 5 or 6. It made me remember that my mom had my sister and I watch all of those shows about preditors, child molesters, husbands beating their wives, sexually abusing their children etc. I remember growing up watching those shows until I was 12 or 13 and my mom telling me about "how men are dogs" and "Can't be trusted".

My parents also had a strained relationship. They constantly were yelling at each other in front of my sister and I. I mean even if we were in our room with the door shut my dad's booming voice shook the house, screaming about getting a divorce. (my parents never got a divorce, they are still married). But there have been times since that I thought my dad probably cheated on my mom, even though he wouldn't admit to it.

Recently I've had dreams about having sex with my dad, which also causes me anxiety when I wake up. In the past I've had tons of erotic dreams about my sister and my mom, but having it be my dad makes me super uncomfortable.

Oh also I only get off to Girl on Girl porn really. I identify as being bi-curious, I've never had full on intercourse with a female or had a romantic relationship with one.