SEX, FEAR, SEX, FEAR, LISTEN PLZ I NEED A EAR!

I first wonna say some things in this post will make me seem awful...plz dont stop talking to me...

When I was a kid my parents always bought me toys, etc. To make me "happy". I was a living breathing mental illness, depression took me over. WHen I was a pre-teen I started getting Electronics (computers,mp3 players,etc) from my parents trying to make me "happy". I finally said STOP. I then tried making myself happy by talking to family,friends,professionals about my probs.

None helped. Then I discovered pornography and my sex drive added a tremindious burden that I'm now living wwith. I always seem to be masturbating and regreting it...I feel so perved!!!! I HATE MYSELF!!! Only reason I live is because 1 day I want a loving family a wife, a daughter, son...But lately sex is on my mind but I hate it....I'm always hurting my body...in a mental state by doing the things I do!

I'm always scared to talk to women because the fear I will only think about thoughts I dont want to...the internet has helped because I usually dont see them...or even if I can (profiles and such) I tend to shy away from it....

I'm just looking for SOMETHNG to make me HAPPY and now anythng sexual seems to be it....but it really doesnt...I mean I regret it and hate it...

I'm so lustful 1 thing I always dispised in others...

NOw its me...

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PLZ REPLY I NEED SUPPORT!

Maybe you should try different activities.. like try out for a sport or a club at school or in your community, and maybe you can find something you really like, but even if you can't, in the mean time you are distracting your mind from sex and stuff.

I don't know if you see a therapist now, but I'm sure they deal with this sort of situation. I think it might be beyond something you can handle yourself, even if it's uncomfortable to talk about.

I have heard that sexual contact/activities are a means to 'connect'; as humans we yearn for 'connection' with others. You may want to explore other ways of connecting with people.

I can relate to your 'obsessions', etc. There are times when I have it too; when it's all I can think about....I think it's when I lose my connection with my inner self....and when I journal...and reconnect with my feelings....the compulsion dissipates.

Seems you need to connect with someone with whom you can be your real you....inevitably, the only way to have a real connection with another...is to first connect with ourselves...self-awareness it is called...and working with a therapist on that goal...is a worthwhile pursuit...

Best of luck to you!

cut yourself a little slack! you're a teenage boy!! you're gonna think about sex.

if you think you are looking at porn too much or doing other things too much then you might want to talk to a therapist or your family doctor about it. you don't want to get addicted to porn. but i'm not sure what constitutes an addiction to porn...so i can't really help you there.

i do hope there are some men here who can help...i was obviously never a teenage boy! maybe you could post this in the men's forum as well....i'm sure there are some who could give advice

...you're doing the right thing reaching out to people to make sure you keep everything in a healthy balance...

<font color="#000088">I think pornography is something that you really should stay away from as much as possible. It can start out as just a little innocent looking at some pics., but after awhile it could develop into a more serious problem, and the pic's. don't seem to be giving you the same effect as they used to anymore.
I'd really be careful with the long term effects of Pornography! </font>

I agree on the porn bit. You're a bit young to be so captured by something so dark.

As far as masturbating. . .you're a young boy. It's going to happen. In fact, it'll probably happen LOTS.
DO NOT LET THIS TURN INTO ANOTHER REASON YOU NEED THERAPY.
Sexual gratification is NORMAL. I promise. Even girls do it sweetie.