[irgendwie]

So, my ex-boyfriend and I split two years ago. It was a pretty rubbish relationship at the start, but it lasted for about 3-4 months. We were both in high school during this time, and he was a year or two older than me. We were secretly dating too, so our parents had no clue about us, but this isn't the point of the story; it's just some background info.

After the 2nd month or so, he began asking me for nude photographs of myself. I said no, that I wasn't comfortable with it. He said fine, okay, whatever; but he became persistent. He eventually started sending nude pictures as a way to "make me feel less uncomfortable" about the whole thing. Eventually, he started to tell me that it was okay, and that all kinds of couples did it. That it wouldn't hurt anything. I sent him one, and to this day I regret it so much. He was such a manipulative person, and he took advantage of me (or at least I feel that way looking back at it now). I just feel so guilty. I feel gross... degraded even that he took sexual pleasure in looking at my body the way he did. It wasn't even with love or affection. It was pure lust.

I'm not really sure what the point of this thread is. Closure? Reassurance? I don't know. I just need to tell someone. I need someone to listen. I need to hear someone's opinion and experiences.

[aussie_surfer]

I want to share two points with you:

1. He is a manipulative jerk who used you for his own self-gratification, with no regard for your feelings.

2. You may feel gross, guilty, etc; but you were manipulated by someone who was only concerned with their own gratification. The very fact that you feel ashamed and guilty proves that you are a good person.

I hope this helps!

[Artchic528]

I had a similar experience with a guy online about 10 years ago. He manipulated me into sending him nudes. Just like you, he sent me some of himself to "break the ice" so to speak, and just like you, I feel ashamed, gross, and guilty about it to this day.

I hope you won't beat yourself up about it too much. It's not your fault you were manipulated by such a jerk.

there are a lot of manipulative jerks out there!

i can't even tell you how many times i've been sent nudes as a way to guilt me into sending them some in return.

i point out to them that most of the internet is porn and google is their friend...they get the hint!